"O"my destiny.......(part II)

Its a dream come true  a union of souls , life has losend now its control ...."O" my destiny it feels so nice to be out of your control,  its a treat to heart which beats on evry tweet of wind that blows.....every sound i hear  ignites a rhythm of emotions uncontrolled , "O" my destiny i am relieved of pain that you poured !!

Life now is a  sail with emotional over flow, i fear i may collapse with rhytm of emotions that flow....the wait was  long to break free frm your control  , "O" my destiny ,its a thanksgiving night when you set me free , i thought i will never be able to break that grip of yours !!

The love now will flourish and life a bed of rose(roses) the unaccomplished dreams i had ,  have come so close..."O" my destiny , i am greatful for setting me free , the life on earth was  sad and sore , i am pleased to have broken free from that  spell of yours  now am aboard a padestal that is not in your control , and i kneel on  knees for setting free my soul   "O" no more my destiny" destiny !!

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'O" my destiny.......(part I)

The love i thought would never die ripped apart i changed my mind its destiny , its nothing but destiny takes you for trial ! My belief in you i thought will never die, strayed i roam in pain and cry,O my destiny,dont play no game its enough of game of painful trials !!

Life we plan is not in our control ' O" boy , deep in my heart i know we all go through trials , its destiny that controls our life , 'O' its destiny ,  destiny of trials !!

Leave me alone  "O ' destiny of trial , relieve me of pain and dont make me cry...i kneel and believe in  power of you , please hold on for the time and losen your control ,"O"destiny hold on for some time !!

The ordeal of life if one could live through , it is  a delight and  blessings from the skies,"O"my destiny try not to control and let me live my life !!

 "O" destiny dont make life no more wry i have unaccomlished dreams  that are trailing behind, let me breathe and free my soul from spell of trial that is in your control...."O" my destiny ,give me some control on my life,my destiny !!

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a moth allured by light.....

No respite from lonely night........ i am ablaze , i am a moth who got allured by light !!
The thought of crisp my wings in light .....pulled me towards love, i thought was life !!
Grilled in pain i pray for respite......this fire of love was though wrong, but  my choice !!
Overwhelmed in love i was turned so blind.......the flicker of flame allured me to light !!
 Love i thought was the ultimate in life....no more i fly and no more i hop around the light !!
 My wings i thought i could crisp in light ... the love i thought was my life, ignited my heart
 and burnt me alive !!

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secret of flimsy frame.....

That smile that face, those eyes that embrace I loved that breezy feel of yours........untill  life chose to do us apart it was amazing life of ours !!
The breathtaking smile that heart shaking frame,life seemed perfect till we were together sailing in world of ours......... but life did do us apart !!
Sorrowed i lay in memory of great days and  tap of foot fall i heard  thought you have come around .... a spark lit up my eyes and i spread my arms towards the sky !!
 Tears rolled down my face i rushed towards the tap that came, astonished i realised i  passed through a flimsy frame that was frail and smiled at me in plight !!
Through out the day and lonely nights i gaze at flimsy frames in space and wait for a whiff that may feel my face,  the feel i know would convey your state and make me conscious of secrets of smile of flimsy frame
which i let slip through my fingers last time !!

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cocoon my shell.........

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Who says i have no emotions ,who says my feelings are dead.....i am an ocean full of emotions whose feeling are trapped !!
With  cocoon spun around me , i isolate myself from the world......i live behind the cocoon that i spun , now i call it my  sweet shell !!
who says i have no heart and my heart stopped beating long back......i live in my world of emotions that i chose to be trappd in !!
 Living in this world of creatures who  grind you bad........grind you on display of your emotions , you are vulnerable ,  you have had it if they find out !!
I am glad i learnt to conceal my heart and not reflect my emotions through my eyes....I am in  love with my solitude, living in my shell  !!

world of imagination.......

Being a part of strange world  not happy with the way  things moved  on ..... am i delighted that you left for, a world of imagination  !!
Though lonely i am in world of not so happy lives around...... do i  regret that you left behind some one who loved , loved you in all forms !!
Wonder how long i have to be around and when would you decide to take me along......the life seems too prolonged would love to be in world of imagination !!
Its been an ordeal to live without you my sweet heart........ yet delighted that we both are destined to be together in world of imagination !!
Your light falling on cascading fall inspires me to be strong......one day i will be a part of this night fall casting shadows on cascading fall !!
That night would be an eternal one when both of us would together move on .....in the world of imagination,
away from painful life of this worldly forms !!

love in the air......

I am in love in world of emotions for the first time..............that  i can feel love in the air and love every where !!
The life seems so bright lips turned into smile....... its for the first time i can feel and i can breathe love in the air !!
I am not shy to express my feeling  ,when i am in love drifting with emotions......its an expression that needs an explosion in the air !!
Though i did not realise that love comes with time , it takes you by surprise ...leaves pleasant feeling in  your heart and puts you on top of the world !!
The state of my mind is a musical wonder dancing to the tune.......... of love in the air and love every where !!
 This is the first time i have fallen in love , love so true that  i can feel love every where ............love in the air !!
A beautiful feel is being  in love when dreams come true ....its like a canvas painted in bright colors in the air !!
All the butterflies who seemd to have surrounded me i realised  are infact painted by me..... on my canvas in the air !!
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cant live without you - II

   
 All the while you were close to me , i didnt realise the love was cultivating inside my heart for you ,   i cant live without you , i cant without you !!
  By the time i realised you  were gone and no where to be seeen that made me believe, i can do nothing withou you ,  i cant live without you !!
Every night i look at the sky standing near the aisle, looking for you my heart gives a shrik cry , i want you to know that i cant  live without you, i dont want to live without you !!
Every time i see the night recede i want you to know that it  was me standing by your pyre, when i realised i wont be able to  live withou you , my life is nothing  without you !!
'O' my love c'mom hold my hands i cant live this life i am so agonised  without you, you know i  will not  be able to live without you !!

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when i dream of you......

when  i dream of you my heart slows down my love, with that feel of you.......with a feeling of pleasure in my heart when i sleep !!
My dreams of you are moments of love ,when i was with you till disasterous that night when i lost you my love......... which changed pattern of my sleep !!
In my sleep my love , i sleep with you dreaming of our passion and love when i was with you ........i want the nights to go on and have my nights full of dreams !!
My love my heart i am lonesome my love, come in my dream tonight.....mysterious that love that we shall make tonight , will give me solace in burnig and this pain !!
That feel of you is burning me inside to be with you my love......cant wait for sensational night when i will be with you and have pleasure in my heart when i sleep !!
 I Love you !!
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' O ' My life...........

'O' my life .. where are you................ theres a beutiful hue .. an awe inspiring sight .. of spring every where !!
The blossom on trees .. the colour of meadows...............a fascinating sight .. but you are not seen nowhere !!
The fragrance of spring .. i can smell in the air.. i am looking for you......but you are no where in sight ..where did you go !!
'O' my life .. i looked every where .. i am unable to find ......You couldn't have disappeared from my sight .. in the air !!
The magic of spring,the blossom on trees is visble in the night.......my searching eyes, in terrific this sight have stopped ..cant blink any more !!
Without you in my life .. its of no use to live in this world of hues ........i would love to leave everything behind and be with you !!
Love for me ..is a beautifu feeling .. a feeling so strong ..that i dont mind to die in your arms and be with you !!
I wish you were not gone and had stayed by my side .. stroking my hair .. while i was in your arms .. in this time of year !!
'O' my life , please reappear ..a plea from my side..................................need your love all my life  !!
 Together we can disappear from the sight .. of this world of hues and be in the air .......'O' my life.......I want you to love me for ever.. immaterial is this life .. together forever..where ever we go....."O" MY LIFE.....

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cant live without you

How could i say , i was wrong , it was a moment of wild storm ,i am insane dont take me wrong....i cant live without you ,cant live without you !!
How could i think,i can move on , it was a moment of eclipse in my life , i am insane dont take me wrong...i thought i could live without you,live without you !!
Every day i wait for you,every moment i think of you, my mistake i went wrong........please stay where ever you are , i am on my way , together we can go far , i am nothin without you , nothing  without you !!
I wish i could undo the past , you will be back in my grasp..........the silence is tearing me apart , i am insane i let you go......give me a chance , you will know,that i am nothing without you, my life is nothing without you !!

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Ever since life turned around......

Every time i turn around , i see the life closing its doors to me .... and.i wonder , if you are out there or have left me with the mystery , which is never ending it seems.....but still i wait for you , hoping ,one day you will come back to me .....
Ever since the life turned around , it left me groping  for joys that i longed to share with you...but some day , i am sure , life will open its doors to me....
Never ever,  the feeling was strong , that i will be made to bear this pain ,which hurts more than i can  bear it seems.....but , i hope , i will , move on in hope of you returning one day  to me .....
Around this time , when i should have been with you , i am surrounded by sorrow of life which is mean.....but some day , i am sure, this pain will subside, when i get used to the thought of you not being around......
My love , you should have waited for me ,i would have preferred, to live a life of a soul ......... atleast we would have been together , in the mystery of life that is difficult to understand it seems........
Oh ! mystery of  life ,i plead, either be by my side or erase the memories which are difficult to live with , it seems.......atleast , i will be able to live , till  my love holds me in his arms once again and we can live in peace  !!
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From the moment............

For a moment , i thought you were gone ,but when i looked at  the sky i knew i was wrong, and knew you were around....... from that moment , i could not sleep all night long , but when wind whispered in my ear, i closed my eyes for a while......and the moment i closed my eyes , i heard a gentle knock through my heart , i rushed and open the door, and felt the caress of breeze that was soft and sweet.....i knew it was you , standing behind the mist which was dark,i gazed through the cloud and could see your form , my love !!

And the moment , you held me in your arms , i could not stop my tears of joy roll down my cheeks , my heart skipped the beat , i felt your heat and i knew you are with me for lives to come.......that was the moment , i froze in your arms and while my soul swung , to the beat of your heart , what a feeling it was being in your arms , my love !!

For a moment , please hold me in your arms , let me feel your heat and believe you are next to me,its love that has thrived , and you are with me .......for this moment of love that is so sweet , hold me tight my love, love me tonight , and lets go to sleep in each others arms , for lives to come and believe the beat  , that has been around ever since you took me in your arms , my love !!

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cherish the love........

Look in to my eyes,you will find the pain i went through.............nothing but it was my love,that helped , sail me through !!
Dont ever leave me, i waited for long , with not a soul around......nothing but it was my heart,that told me i am gonna be with you !!
My nights were so long ,days were all dark,with fear of having lost you ............nothing but it was my soul, that assured me ,one day you will come out of blue !!
My heart was shattered in million of pieces, my soul was wounded  .........which couldnt have healed ,if you had not come to my rescue !!
Now when you have come, stay around and shower me with love...........nothing but its  your love,that would
help heal the wounds !!
The nights seem so bright,and days are no more lull...............nothing but its your heart,that tells me , thers no reason to be afraid , i am with you !!
My heart that was shattered to million of pieces,  is reciting your name............its nothing but  your eyes, which have drowned me ,and pulled me out of pain which was so true !!
One look into your eyes,and life took a new turn........nothing but its your soul which is beside me ,and told me  you longed for me !!
Just stay close , dont even move, let the life move on while we cherish the feeling of being loved , and destiny take its course !!
Look into my eyes......

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Give me every thing tonight.........

Tonight , give me everything tonight.........i am swelled up with emotions,let me pour my heart out tonight ,it is over flowing with deep emotions........looking at your mysterious smile !!
Smile ,while i dance like waters of oceans....i am teased by love and notion........that i am in love with your mysterious smile,your that mysterious smile !!
Hold me , hold me, my love tonight.....there may not be again, a night of celebrations ......i am carried away with emotions, love me deep and let me see you smile, that mysterious smile !!
Feel, every breath i take ,i am emotional......while i am in grip of love and emotions.....hold me tight in your arms tonight and look into my eyes while you smile , Ah i love your mysterious smile !! 
Emotions, feel my blood gush with stream of emotions......give me everythig tonight......... this night may not be there to last for ever......lets make best of  it tonight ,while the night of emotions is high ,high on your   mysterious smile , Ah , i  love that smile !!
Felt , never in my life , i  felt so high before...... never i knew, i was going to go through this beautiful enigma of night.....this night may not be there to last forever......give me every thing tonight , love me deep while i am so emotional ..... love me deep, accompanied by your smile,your mysterious smile !!

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where did you go

 

Where did you go......... the feeling is so frightening.......... of being left alone........... its not the right thing !!
U left me all alone .......when deep inside i was sure....... i am not  lonesome any more....... its so frightening !!
I need you more and more ..  please dont leave me alone .. i am crumbling i know.... its not the right thing !!
l thought we shall  walk hand in hand...but i dont see you any more... honey i am doomed ,its no joke....its so frightening !!
I know every one has to go...but i could have accompanied your soul ....which would have been the right thing !!
Honey come back to me ....and be by my side.....i am left all alone..... in the world of not so bright things !!
I heard some one call out my name .... wonder if he has come back to me......try to hear the sound...... of the vacum that tears apart .....no thats not his sound ,its the lightining !!
O my destiny..... please come back to me , take me where ever he has gone..... and is hiding !!
 Where did u go..........

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life 'O' life.......

Give me some sun shine, i wish to fly so  high, the desire to fly is in my heart,  ingrained deep inside !!

 Music of life so divine , u are not untrue but so true, life 'O' life, u are a refrain , musical flute stands for u !!

 The fragrance of jacarandas , i can smell you every where , seems you have been with me from primevel time of my life !!

Navigate me heavenly skies up high , i look up  at you,...henceforth you are my guide,i dont have to illustrate, just be by my side and be true !!

 I grope ,  for flowers of jasmine ,which sure seem some where close by ,life 'O' life i am in need of destitude , which i can reach if sun shines.

Music that i can hear seems to  come from pampas near by, life 'O' life i dont feel like jade any more, i am  so vigrous my face flushed with feelings of joy !!

I am like a fresco in the air, navigate me 'O' heavenlysky, i need some more sun shine to brighten up my life !!

Veil that twinkles at night.........

The swarm of twinkling stars, embellished  the night sky , is that where we all come from ,a quest always on my mind !!
Millions of shining stars, be a little benevolent , i am prying,when i was young i was told,i came from skies  that twinkle at night !!
I am wandering in search of loved ones ,that were close to me, are you the veil they adorn, and dont wish to be seen !!
Be my messeigneur ,a message needs to be conveyed ,i long to be with them,O millions of shining stars,tell me how do i become a part of splendid world of mysteries !!
My life has been of a wanderer, searching for my love who disappeared, i wish he had whispered his destination in my ear !!
I feel ,i am on brim of my search, ever since i tried  searching for my loved one in thou ,who seems hiding somwhere behind veil that twinkles at night !!

mysteries of celestial.........

Mysterious aether , rule my dreams ......................i am a novice ,trying to understand mysteries of celestial !!
My dreams are conquered by flutter so serene  ........i am novice trying to understand, butterflies that gleem !!
Synthesis of notes and celesta ,in my dreams....I am a novice ,trying to understand , fantasy,surrounding me!!
Subtle,evasive are most my dreams..symphonic, synchronized.they all seem...the power of aether .it seems !!
Am i the chosen one, by the celestial............. ....i am novice ,and am startled by the mystery of my dreams !!
I close my eyes to revive my dreams.............................i am fluttering along with sound of celesta,is all i see !!
synonmous my dreams .....incredible,myserious,all my dreams...........i am startled by mysteries of celestial !!

Enigma of blue lagoon..........

  Deep in my heart .....in an ocean of deep, my thoughts.....riding the crescent moon ,swept with enigma of blue lagoon........swayed with splendour this night.....i wonder if i am  a fairy ,or its a tale......riding on ripples of blue lagoon , i sail through the glamour of night.....a night so majestic and bright.... defeated by beat of my heart....... i seem to be in grip of sound.......a sound of, melody of night......swept by breeze so mild.....i am in heavens of  deep blue skies.....reflections of crescent this moon...... riding on ripples of blue lagoon .....being a part of this journey tonight.....i wonder if i am a fairy or its a tale.....need for someone by my side......has subsided with glorious this night.....the enigma of blue lagoon this night, is deeper than depth of heavenly blue skies.....I bow my head tonight....to wonders of mysteries of blue lagoon   !!!

will i last tonight...........

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Silence of night,the calm iside ..............killing me softly..............the phenominal this night !
 My angel my darling,i was  crushd  inside..........i  waited for long for mysterious this night !!
Race with reflections of angel like moon.........exasperated........ was weary.......all my life !
Whispers of blues, the breathtaking hues........its amazing,the power of dancing, full moon !!
Love me tender,love me true......................my soul has surrendered to musical these hues !
Coloured in love , gripped in your arms.......killing me softly,is your breath ......... so warm !!
Stay close , feel the beat of my heart............. amazing an exp........... is being in your arms !
My agel ,my darling....its phenomina so right......i am begining  to wonder ,will i last tonight !!

meritorious clouds of celestial.......

Dont cry ...i have blossomed .....ever since i was relieved.... of that long  ordeal.....my smiles have widened ........i am along with meritorious clouds of celestial !!
My remains were my apparels........ which are now effluent........it was a dupe that i adorned for all these years !!
My angel like daughter .........its time for celebration......... i am relieved of simulate that life...... so dont cry on cadaver of mine !!
I am in  the skies of divinity........ its not desired to be disheartened ..........i am around  but imperceptible.............. just pay the last rights to me !!


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young girl who was happy.......

A fairy like girl used to be so full of life.......when young she was happy .........she loved her life ....... She bloomed like a flower.... looked like a butterfly.....when she was young and in love with her life ......Disasters struck her....... by the time she realised........she kneeled in front of destiny that was wry ..... Sorrowed she cries through out the nights...... her eyes are misty....... so full at times......she lives in deserts and flickers at night ........ She is still young but unhappy.... learning to come terms with life....... she is in search of love...... which seems to have dried in deserts at night ....... Its inevitable she is going to die .....in search of love .....which she has been denied,O fairies of the dark come down and pry in her life, its time for some one to hold her tight......free her or salve her .....its your desire.....but let her not flicker in her desires!!