"O" my dear life

             

                                 

                                                                 I wonder ,
                                                                who I am ,
                                                      where did I come from,
                                                 where and when I am gonna go ,
                                                                    who
                                                                 do I love,
                                                                who is this
                                                               who I  hate,
                                                           who do I belive in ,
                                                               who I dont,
                                                        who do I write about ,
                                                          my illusive world,
                                                             my thoughts ,
                                                              my dreams ,
                                                          all put together
                                                              force me ,
                                                         to contemplate
                                                      in my illusory world ,
                                                         my virtual love !
                                                             Is this,
                                                     how I am gonna go ?
                                                  The gloominess in mind ,
                                             painful have become my strides ,
                                                     try to read my stars ,
                                                     try to read my palms ,
                                                  at no conclusion, I arrive !
                                                           Will
                                                         go on ,
                                                  few mor years ,
                                                may be a decade ,
                                                         solace ,
                                              I can see is not in my fate !
                                                       but why,
                                               Where did I go wrong ?
                                                   What is my fault ?
                                             Why did you not choose
                                                     to cuddle me ,
                                  the way you do it with your loved ones ,
                                             And give me some respite ?
                                                     Am broken,
                                                       cant rise,
                                                  tears in my eyes,
                                                  have now dried !
                                                    Crave for life,
                                                   has now died !
                                                   My ambitions,
                                                     my desires,
                                           no more I am enticed by,
                                                  "O" my dear life !
                                                       Now
                                             when i have opined ,
                                                  least you care
                                                 for this li'll one ,
                                                   dont take
                                                no more time ,
                                               show me the way
                                               to exit "O"my life !
                                               Scattered my soul ,
                                                 bits and pieces
                                                 of my heart ,
                                                     now,
                                              need some rest,
                                                if i can find !
                                                 Let me go
                                                   now ,
                                                   but
                                                    a
                                        querry I shall make ,
                                    when we are face to face ,
                                         how could you
                                                 be ,
                                              at times ,
                                              ruthless
                                    "O" MY DEAR LIFE !

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