please find me....

the nights are silent ,i hear no laughter in the day time....a bird like i fly, in search of shelter before the night arrives with the silence it knocks me down...i feel the pain  setting inside ,i close my eyes and pray for some one to be my life before its too late...

i feel like a desert without the rain and i cry at times for some one to relieve me of this pain....life i know is  inscribed by the destiny that i can not change .....but believe in me i did not deserve this painful life....a disaster was bound to strike was written in my name.....

now when i know the life has chosen  me to bear this pain but make no sound.....i live alone in the silence that grips me from all around....my words of silence are all i have to convey my pain....if you get to know and believe in me,where ever you are please find me i am lost in this world.....

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before the twilight...

every morning the sound of whispers,when there is silence all around  ...when you wake me up , love i feel is all around in silence i feel .....my love,you are the one who sleeps next to me in all my dreams...i wait for whispers to know that you lay beside me when i was in my sleep !!

i close my eyes and hold the pillow and think of you while i sleep....and wake up before the twilight and pretend i am asleep.....i open my eyes with the first whisper i hear, to get a glimpse of you my dear....dont you feel its time for you to appear when i sleep with silence around me that tears apart , no matter how strong i feel !!

deep in love ,the feelings so strong that life seems to have lost color that a want ....and the whispers in the morning is what i am left with ,are the only hope and i survive because i know you lie beside me but before the morning ,before the sunrise so that i can only feel but you dont want to be seen !!

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the white sheep who clenched a bigonia with his teeth......

 

i watched the sunset and wondered if any one was there  who could be with me , when the night falls ....i felt the presence of chill  in the silence when the sun was gone........ but no one was around me to break the ice that was prolonged .............whole night i could hear the thunder and storm which came to an end with an explosion i heard ....i looked around me but no one was there !!

i went back and lay under the tree and wondered if any one was around in wild jungle where i belonged,tried to sleep on my bed that was made of dried leaves and i looked around  but no one was to be found  .......tried not to think of the night that was too dark when i heard a chirping sound ...a nightingale on tree i found was making strange sounds .....i lay looking at it and wondered if it was trying to convey that some one is about to be here !!

when  the sun was about to rise,in twilight  i could see a shepherd followed by herd of sheep ....one with a begonia clenched in his teeth was try  was trying to break free ......my mind was sure it is you and i rushed and rescued the one who i thought was you....the nightingale now was now not chirping but made sweet sound.....the thunder and storm that stopped i could hear started again....and an explosion i heard once again enveloped the Shepherd and his herd and were not seen again !!

few years have gone by but i feel content with my little white sheep.....he is my companion though it maynot speak.....the begonia he clenched in its small white teeth ....is still fresh as was the day i freed the sheep from herd.......the presence of you i feel every where in fragrance that comes from the begonia when the sheep sleeps, in dark nights with me and i feel your presence though you may not be seen in the garb that  you adorned last life is different from the one you adorn but you are with me and no longer i feel alone !!

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Dolphin in the desert....

all life with a a baggage on my heart i was carrying on , until i reached an oasis that was all green......
i saw an Avon around the desert that was now my dwelling ground ,i thought it was perfect for me....
the sun moved towards the sea and i could see some dolphins sing on the beach that was golden
ans some star fish in the sea.....confused i looked around and wondered about the mystery surrounding me !!

i saw some rain was now falling down,some seagulls had flocked around , the sky was now golden
brown and the sun was not shining some how ....i saw some one come riding on a horse that was galloping
on the top of the sea and stopped when it reached the beach....confused i looked around and wondered
about the mystery surrounding me !!

i closed me eyes for few moments now, my name i could hear some one calling out , i could feel was
shivering when some one placed his palms on my shoulders ,i opened my eyes to see who was
around  saw him standing in front of me....confused i looked around and wondered about the
mystery with strange thoughts "how could it be"

my heart was pounding now,i didn't care about the mystery as i wanted this moment to last so badly
i could feel him kiss me   and felt his arms around me  ,didn't want to let go of him , i kissed him
back with passion that i had but the lips i found were not so soft as expected to be......and i wondered
 "how could it be "

i opened my eyes to see if he was still around and  saw some leaves were caressing my face and the dew
was falling , drop by drop making a splashing sound , i seemed to have fallen asleep, the desert storm
had started now making sound like waters in the sea....seagulls i saw were not around the sky was not
at all golden brown but it was the shifting sand that surrounded the sky and me.....i felt some tears falling
from my eyes had hit the ground when i realised he was no where in the scene !!

often i cry when i think of the day while i wait for the mystery to strike once again,but not when i sleep
the love that i have been waiting for has been away for some time now while i sulk in deserts and in
scorching heat....life of a vagabond is what i call it  and i wish it would be over when i hear the
galloping sound coming in the deserts with no sea nor an Avon around but a dolphin in a desert now is
waiting for you my love and that is me !!

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the sweet enemy.......

all my life,you were my laughter , when i was in pain ......"O" my life ,  in wildest of your dreams what made you feel , i am ready to leave where as i follow you in all my dreams !!

through out my life, i have never described my heart to you..... but you are the one, for whom my heart bleeds and the stains that you see are soaked in your love !!

you are my sweet enemy i feel ,the way my heart seeps in pain for you .......but what made you feel that i am ready to leave when  i am in deep love with you !!

the love i feel is pious than  rivoulet water that  it recieves from snow clad cliffs.......you must realise my heart has been in siege , i am in love  with sweet enemy i feel is no one but you  !!

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used in love (dedicated to Beyond)

this piece of poetry is dedicated to a fellow blogger Beyond and inspired by his lines in my comment box

you keep coming back to me though i used you to the maximum , when i was in pain ........ there was no laughter no strength left ,in my life when you came as rescue from pain !!

you fell in love with me though i told you i am a game......a did not lie to you, but you chose not to believe in my words and continue to live in denial !!

somehow i am not able to stop myself from using  you when you are there....i have no regrets for my actions as i made you aware!!

a trophy ,a bolster a comfort in bed is the best way i can describe you........whenever i have used you but i am surprised you have shown no mind, to mind !!

today i spoke my heart out and a friend  was there to give an ear.....she knows what it feels when some one cheats you and you don't hear !!

but she feels its your life no one is to be blamed ,if you have chosen to live in denial.....no one is there to stop you from keep coming back to me and get used by me my dear!!

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together we shall be strong (part II)

we shall have to accept the irony of life ............but will love each other and   be together till death do us apart as we have no control , no hold on ultimate truth of life , my love !!

we shall not let the truth control our hearts , love.......but  shall live for today and make best of our lives till death do us apart and not regret what we missed in life ,my love !!

the life we live will not last forever.......but we shall ensure , that we don't let the feeling of being slain ever rule our hearts,we may not be together but our love shall survive for ever, is the irony of true love that life will accept one day , my love!!

we may not be together in our journey to heavens.....but we shall be together , no matter how long it takes to be with each other once again in heavens ........ till then we shall wait and look ahead and our love shall unfold its strength for life to believe in our , true love !!

life though is a journey spiced with love and pain .....but together we shall make it a refrain ,on earth as well as heaven and defeat life whether its on earth or heaven ...the life shall speak of our love whether together or left without each other ,it will know some day, we feel no pain as long as we are in love in every birth we take,my love!!

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together we shall be strong(part I)

no matter how far we reach love...no matter how hard the storm hits us....no matter how hard is the path we chose, love.....together we shall always be strong and fight my love !!

no matter if life chose to part us........no matter if life decides to change our course.......no matter how hard the destiny strikes us.....together we shall always be strong !!

every time the fright comes from heavens to strike us.....we shall not let the fear , fright us......we shall feel strong , that should be essence of our love !!

our love is stronger than the storm , we  realised  love....we shall be victorious with love around us , when the storm is gone.....though we may have to kneel but never give up in love !!

together we shall deceive life , my love......together we shall be stronger  than the life perceives our love....the life is not aware how strong is our love !!

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a lie , your beautiful smile......

i couldn't find my name engraved in your heart ....but couldn't stop from loving you at all........ i feel like a stranger a stranger in love !!

your smile that i found out is a beautiful lie..... but i didn't mind you making your way through my heart though you don't  care for,care for  me at all  ,..... this is a strange world , a world where mystery is love !!

i thought you are not a stranger and you know me and my heart.....but i realised its not me but some one else who got to your heart....this is a strange world , where hearts are broken like glass !!

this is a strange world, of strange lovers like me.......who thought , i got to your heart but the fact i failed to get to your thoughts !!

the love that surrounds me, makes me feel like an emotional fool.....when i see you smile ,though you got no right on me when you are not true in love !!

love is a beautiful emotion i nurture in my heart.....but you wont realise if you continue to hide  behind your  smile that is a beautiful lie !!

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mysterious snake charmer........

Riding on the moon ,  i heard the music that came from a bean   i turned to look around ..... and  saw a snake charmer around , who looked up on  hearing  my sound !!

Drowned in music , i felt like dancing with the snake charmer that night ...... i smiled at the charmer and kept my tambourine aside!!

I was about to play my drone when  music , came from a cello.........i felt i could jive with the snake charmer  who now smiled !!

The sound of tambourine that came along the  music from the drone........had fainted along with the charmer ,who i found was now gone !!

Mysterious was the charmer and that musical surround....looking for the charmer i turned to looked around !!

I was thinking about the charmer when heard a hummm that came from a near by tree...... Iwent up to the tree and saw there was a humming bird who was looking down !!

I asked  "whether it saw a charmer who plays a bean " it smiled and asked me " if i could dance with him " !!

 I was now , too sure it is the mysterious charmer who was playing music with his bean.....i looked into his eyes and replied " i could only jive , if he took the form of  a charmer , who i had seen" !! .

 Moments after i asked the bird to jive with me................ i heard the tambourine play the music that i cherish !!

I turned around to look for the bird who disappeared it seemed .... and i heard  the music that came from my drone!!

 I turned around to see who was playing with my musical strings though i was too sure , it was the snake charmer playing the gimmicks !!

I jived with the charmer while music came from all my musical strings .....mesmerising i found  the music all around !!

Through the night while i danced with the snake charmer, i saw the moon that was looking away ......as if he knew i may not have this chance again !!
bean- a corrupted Sanskrit word for music instrument used by snake charmers

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neither poetry nor prose.......

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i didnt share the laughter ever ..... i didnt share my feelings with anyone. ........to wander i felt , was my destiny ........ the burning sensation was all i could feel.........no one cared to listen to my heart nor me......nor one came to have a look at me............... a strange life , is all i could see......... i dont care what life has in store for me ...... it has changed me completely  !!

 pain is a wonder .......no strain no pleasure , now i can feel ........ a heart that throbbed i know , is like a rock...... that cares for no one nor for me.... when i take an exit from this life,i know........ no one will be
there to have a look at me.......... but theres nothing that matters now i can see !!

i dont complain about life its fun for me ,...........often told my life no matter how hard you try to knock me down ....... i have learnt to rise against the tide ........wont fail and thrive as many times you try to drown me ........you must know you are the one who has created me and you only have strenghthened me to fight with life.....though  you may not agree with me....... but i dont care as long as i sail through and am victorious in life as long as i live !!

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wait for nobody.........

the wait for nobody ,will always go on......................if you  search my heart right now , no one will be found !!
i live in a world of love , but no one till date i have found........some one who could read my heart that is soaked in  love !!
the heart that feels nothing but love , is empty  still to be  found.......it needs a name in there , that can be rhymed by my heart !!
write down your name in there , its empty but a heart that beats....... i hear the beat has slowed down in need of some one who cares for me !!
i try to write about love but not pain that i feel inside me..........i hear the growing pain that i feel , some how comes out that i am informed !!
no one will ever find me in this life, i am too sure......... but i will write my destiny for next life to come and ensure that i reach the shore and i am in control !!


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my feelings............

singled out in love i feel , cant control emotions any more... insane i have become in search for true love !!sunrise is time to start and go on till its dawn.........this is not the life i need with no love , no one to hear my heart !!
most life i lived without love , no more i can bear.......oh" God" why did you have to make me live this life all alone !!
i am here to write what i feel , if ever i find true love......it would be a feeling of accomplishment and complete, though seems love doesn't exist for some one like me !!
though at times i feel i am glad the way i move on .......but at times my emotions take control and cant stop them from over flow !!

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extract of love......

love , that i thought was now ..... i will never let go , but in the night with thunder you left and were gone......only feelings of love i have ,are here to stay now and never be gone !!
gentle is love , that i feel.......tender is my heart , you have left me here to cope up all alone.......so harsh is the storm , but with love that i feel i know i will go on !!
i am in love with you.......though broken is my heart , but the extract of love i gathered when you were here with me.......is nectar for me now, the only way i can reap  since you are gone !!

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listening to my own heart beat (part II)

 

the moment you felt me and took me in your arms , i shivered and tried not to reveal how i felt with that feel of your arms..........the feelings of love for you  i couldn't hide no more    ... ...........and now you knew about my love for you !!

 your lips when caressed my nape, ignited fire inside me  that i tried not to expose .......... the feelings that i found difficult to reveal   ...... now you knew about it and i had no way to control  !!

the moment you put your arms around me , i quivered with  love that i felt for you though i tried to conceal it ........... but  some how you got to know about it and no more it was a secret that i could hold   !!

... i thought you will never know about it when i tried not to shudder when i felt love for you, some how you got a glimpse of my heart ..............thereafter there was no way i could not have surrendered in love and evaded from being loved  nor could i stop my feelings , feeling of love for you !!

when caressed with those lips i opened my eyes  but could not exchange the glance with you .....now i knew my love is an open book for you , my quivers and shivers had given  away ........ i tried to look away from you ....... i knew you could read  my eyes , my thirst and my want for more and more of you !!

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listening to my own heart beat.......

i look into my eyes and i know  they are aware of my feelings for you........my feelings of love for you, are going to stay forever you have no clue !!
i am going to love you till the end but will never open my heart to you.......nor express the depth of my love for you and how i feel about you  !!
i  listen to my own heart beat and i know i am in love with you......abundance of love i feel , i know i will never let you know !!
i  listen to the silence around me i know i am feeling love for you.....more the silence i hear , i am sure i will never let you go !!
wonderful in love i feel ,the feeling i will cherish till the end.......but i think you got a glimpse of how i feel ,though i tried to hide my heart from you !!
if you too feel the way i feel , open up your heart and reveal your love for me.....you know how difficult i feel to reveal my love for you , take me in your arms and feel me to make me believe i can open my heart to you !!

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whispers in the morning (part II )

next time when i heard the whisper that went unheard ,every time he came to wake me from my sleep......i held on to him so tight that he was left with no choice but surrender and stay back with me !!
next time he kissed  my lips , this time i knew was real and not the one i felt in my dreams.......i held on to him so tight gave not a moment to blink his eyes and kissed him back on his lips , that i had missed for some time !!
he gripped me so tight nor did he realise until he could see a ring of smoke around me  .......the heat was felt on both sides that both of us didn't want to let go......that moment was just so right to drown and feel love that we lost control on our souls !!

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whispers in the morning (part I )

the whispers in the morning i hear are not very clear,sometimes i feel i imagine that you were here.....but the taste of your tears that came from nowhere  made it very clear , that you wake me  from my sleep ...and  its time not to be in sleep but listen to your thoughts that you whisper in my ear and are not very clear !!
every morning i wake up with a tender shake up ,sometimes i feel i imagine that you came here.... but the aroma in the air that came from no where made it very clear , that you wake me  from my sleep...and its time not to be in sleep but pull you in with me , and go back to sleep  !!
the feel of lips in the morning  burn me inside every time you are here......every time you kiss my lips i think its a mere dream but the smoke that i could see that came from no where made it very clear that you kiss me out of my sleep .....and its time not to be in sleep but the time to feel love and not to miss you and your feel !!

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write only about you............

i was wrong when i thought , i am not going to miss you......once in a while i do try not to think about you.....but you are on my mind and  my attempts are defied not to miss you !!
i was wrong when i thought , i am going to be strong and not give up at all .....once in  while i do try to erase you from my mind , but some how you cling to my mind and i cant see anything beyond you!!
i was wrong when i thought , i am not going to write a word about you......once in a while i do try not to write about you.....but my attempts go wrong and i end up and write only about you !!

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The night is young.......

The night is young ,time for rainfall.....i see you purse your lips and smile near a cloud so dark  ,why don't you ask the cloud to drop you near the cliff , where i wait for rain  fall
The night is young , some dew due to drop.....i see  the cloud has begun to move  fast ,why don't you ask the cloud to drop you near the cliff where i gather some dew before it falls  !!
The night is young , fragrance of love all around.....i see the cloud is about to halt but too far , why don't you ask the cloud not to halt but drop you near the cliff ,where i wait for you my love !!
I feel so young at night with sound of rain fall.....the dew when falls is time for union of souls ,my love..... together we make some music and notes that one can  hear no matter how far they are !!

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life ,a profanity or poetry.......

                                                              This piece of poetry is dedicated to a fellow blogger "beyond",whose comment inspired me to write the word below..









you can turn your pain in to profanity or poetry he says ........did i utter a word that says life is not a poetry but a pain !!
you got to endure it and love it he says ........did i say a word that conveys that neither i  love  nor endure the pain !!
he decided to turn his pain into poetry he says......i went through his poetry but i could feel he chose to write  to defeat the plight !!
we chose to paint our pain  with the words we write .........we paint our face with a smile that hides the feelings inside !!
the poetry we write , trying to suppress the irony of  life.........but some reflection of pain is felt though its not described , and felt through  the spell of words that's left behind !!
 others may not feel it or may not be able to read it.........but you can not hide  whats deep inside ,don't forget we both are victims of  life which seems similar in either of lives........ it was the plight that inspired me to write !!

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all about my dreams.....

i closed my eyes and i could feel the blossom on trees move with the air, that spoke of his feelings.......the days were long but gone,  i am now here to  stay for long, in all your dreams that you dream and you will feel the emptiness is gone   ,while my heart speaks of my love and my feelings.....now i shall be there for years to come and not leave you without feelings , is my dream !!
clenched were my fists , your words were like symphony to me  , the music that i could hear now was not heard for several years that had gone by........the symphony that i could hear , made me too sure that the life has just begun and i could feel the spring bursts in my heart and i could feel things  !!
i reached out for him and was met with soft feelings that came straight from his heart,that made me open up my eyes and realised that he was to stay in my dreams and not with me ......ever since i try to dream whether its a day or a night that is dry but he is in my eyes when i dream !!

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life without you......

Life  seems an enigma, untrue and i feel i am lost without you in  this world where life is so long , i wonder why are you not here with me and what made you choose not to come along and i have to wait so long for you !!
Life seems to hold a mystery without you and it has been creeping in my mind all along that why did you choose  not to come along , when life i feel is not worth living without you !!

Life i shall treasure if you came along and held me close and moved along ,the pleasure would be to live my life with you , my life that i feel is not worth living without you !!

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will always love you........

when i thought you will always love me i was wrong but the love is all that i could feel.......my emotions that night were controlled by the moments of life.....now when i think where did i go wrong and realise the love that i felt , you didn't feel that night !!
Though you are gone but my love is still alive with the strength i got from the night i was emotional and  full of life......but i thought will let my heart speak to you , that i will always love you.....for years to come ,in my next life !!

You must know love that i felt that night was true but you couldn't see it right ......deep inside you know i am true and you believe in that night......you know i will always love you .....no matter if you are gone and i was not destined  to be with you......i will always wait for you....for years to come and in my next life  !!

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sins of past life.....

Like a nomad i have been   in a wonder land of human beings ,  life is a desert I can hear the screams  that echo around the desert and come back to me !!
Like a withered tree I feel in a wonderland of human beings , life is agony i cant defeat the pain , it mellows down when I stop my fight with life !!
Land of human beings bestowed with sorrows I feel , I am here to face the trial that I escaped but had to face and is justified that I am here to pay for sins of my past life that....I made !!

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scribbles in the sky.....

Like a merlin i was flying and i halted in the sky , when i got a glimpse of you so  that i could speak to you , but you continued your drivee , unawar in  the wild and left me hunt for you ...though i did scribbled in the sky that i am in love with you !!

You did feel the showers from my eyes that came rolling down when i cried and couldnt find no trace of you.....and you did see my scribbles all over in the sky but didnt  stop to read what i write and continued your drive , while roller coaster is my life in search of you !!

All life i have been trying to woo you but you failed all my tries , by not turnig to look at my scribbles in the sky, nor realise the showers that fall on you when its dry........ are my feelers to make you realise that i am in love with you !!

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Duet of love.........

 Believe me the glee i feel since i got a whisk of  love , now no one can stop me, from being in love ....listen to my heart beat and you can feel i might fall in love again !!

Feel of love is strongest of crave that i feel in my heart, i can envisage i am going to be  deep in  love.....listen to the murmur of my heart and you can feel i might get swept off my feet again !!

Gallant of all is a feeling when love conquers the heart , hay is all one can see that is mascot of love......listen to  bilingual whispers of my heart and you can feel i might restart the duet of love again.

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unicorns in love (part II )

The unicorn who came flying i couldn't see was holding a wand,the moments after he went flying i could see my blindfold was gone !!
Deep inside i could feel i was wrong when i thought i am going to meet someone.......i was about to cry when i realised i was changing into a unicorn !!
Life is full of surprise now i could feel , when i saw the flying unicorn who now was smiling at me as if he is the one !!
The sky i could hear was chanting love songs , my eyes were now full of tears when i followed the unicorn...together we fly in sky and we are in love !!

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unicorns in love.........

Riding a cloud up high i am trying to reach someone ,blind fold on my eyes i know i am going to meet someone........life is full of surprise ,didn't know this day will come !!

Wish i could fly higher in sky and was a unicorn , i was patient but cant wait to be with him.....life i thought was going to deprive me of  love but it has been proven i was wrong !!

Silver line in the sky i can see though my eyes have a blind fold on   ,but i know i am getting closer to my love.......inside i can feel we  are going to fly like Unicorns in love !!

The silver line i could see is not my love but the Unicorn who came flying for me , as if it was written by someone......through the blind fold on my eyes i can see an outline that i know is the one ,i am trying to reach and the time has come !!

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call for truce (part II)

Bruised my heart was though i gave a call for truce , i lay in memories of you though you had left me behind to brood over  to reason out things you do............ when i saw flying some kites in the sky,i knew you changed your mind and gave in to my call for truce !!
My heart is so pleased its no more in grief, i wish you had heard when i gave a call for truce , and had not left the way you left me like you always do...........now since you are back, swear you will not leave like you always do and give it a chance and be true !!
Life gave you one chance to be true,there may not be another chance for you to prove your love , though it may be true........now the need is to be strong and think not once that you will be gone on smallest of fights we do , its one life we may not have it twice, so give your best and not succumb like you always do !!