conversation with life

   These  lines are extract of few of my poems written on my conversation with  life :)

You thought you could run you could escape ,
"my eminent defeat" , you said " is my fate"
With a slain heart I pleaded but in vain,
your arrogance and your pride turned you blind
you said"I am your child" but" your hands are tied"
"I must play my part on your stage
and
 should have no complaints,
my destiny is to write and applaud your plot , your games ."
You are supreme the ultimate power !
If I walked you controlled my gait,
You are divine so controlled my smiles ,
You claimed
"my lonely heart will find a soul is my hope against no hope
I shouldn't wait for respite from my fate,my lonely nights are
marvels of destiny !"

I told you my life " I am a tenacious child "
"I will not stop will find my way ,
my long strides ,though tired but will walk against the tide,
will leave no stone un turned , till you set me free from the curse of destiny
and re write my fate "

 Now don't you hide from this child,you should have thought when you were being beguile!
your hoodwinks your lies now lie by your side
I walk away from your spell , now you have no control
I am a musketeer,I found my way
I found my love , I found my soul

Now why do you smile sheepishly and hide ,
"Wait this is a part of your role on my stage"
Is this what you are trying to convey ?
If so then hold my destiny , I have no complaints !

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Bliss

                           

                           


                               OH no , its a bliss !
                          Make sure theres no twist ,
                                    I am a saint,
                                I pray, let me sail
                                   you promised
        "you will not touch or change and will stand still
while I drench the world in my color till the horizon where it ends "

                            I like the way you  say
                                        LIVE
             So let me rush before I hear  the final call
                 and feel how it feels to be blessed
           a feeling that I longed for but you never spared .

                          Your world just nudged
                   while it   re wrote every chapter again
                                      that says
                "close your eyes and feel the blissful pain
                   I permit you so don't let the few years
                     of your life left go in waste FLY "

                                         Now
                               don't be intrusive
                                          or
                                     try to pry ,
                   just watch me gallop without a hoof  ,
                            I feel lighter than  a feather
                    though have no wings no caudal
          all I can see is an enchanting smile on his face !

                              Oh no, its a bliss !
                             Hold on I am pale ,
                    pour some color on my body
                              preferably black
                          and duck me in a veil
                                   away
                     from evil eye I am afraid !


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Dreams II

A closet of dreams ,
few accomplished few un achieved ,
I opened the door for you to see
the ones you can accomplish
and
complete ,
like a comatose , like a deceased
I felt without you though I lived ;
be my anchor , navigate me
you are my oar, take the lead ,
widen your arms a bit
accommodate me ,
I am within your reach ;
now let me feel
your warm  breath ,when you breathe
like a novice  I want to feel ,
with you around
when you take the lead ;
my heart pounds when I see the gleam ;
let me drown in your eyes
now don't let the gleam recede ,
my closet of dreams
lies open for you to see ,
here's the key to closet of my dreams ,
don't fear the sound its my heart throb
anxiously waiting for you to turn the key ;
 give me every thing that's in your means


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Decisions

He gave me a reason
to believe
everything has a time and happens for a reason .
Your smiles are there for seasons ,
you have come in to my life for a reason .
I heard the ringing bells of shrine say ,
"its time for vivacity,don't waste your life
on invalid reasons ,
 such opportunities don't come every season .
Your life is a maze , one wrong step may lead you to an unknown world for no reason .
No one belongs to you ,you belong to no one
you come alone and go alone for a reason ;
life is a lonesome journey , if you find someone to walk by your side
its more than what one can ask for.
Now change your gloomy attire to a vivacious one,
welcome the sun rise
that rid you from the marooned life ,
that you lived for no reason.
The time is alive for you to fly
and make hay while the sun shines ,
so smile ,and look forward while life chose to be kind
to you for some reason ,
hold his hand ,don't let the fear of losing him grip
your mind for no reason;
pick up a smile from every corn that smiles
and forget about the pain you got from ... the thorns for no reason.
I give you a few years of your life now  live the way u like ,
  but do think of me who has to take all the difficult decisions "

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The holy slave

             

                 Like a nomad I tried ,
           searched for you in every site ,
            my belief in life had died,
     my soul cried every time it heard my heart
  that was deprived of the luxury of you in my life;
               all my pleas went unheard,
            no one to hear ,no one to feel
          the mockery of life with this child;
    I came down on my knees with folded hands
                            and
            sought mercy from heavens
                             but
came back with a frown that I adorned for a long time
                       on my face;
      Slaughtered and slain ,I asked the pain
         " Why don't you find another place
 to release your anger ,and relieve me along the fate
     now I cant bear you ,OH, you holy slave "
           It turned to looked at my face
                            and
said"Don't worry I will end this game but before I leave,
    have to write an account whether you survive or
                    faint in this holy game"
                     My endless pain
         mellowed me down to the extent
                            that
           I could neither feel nor could faint;
    my existence when I felt was on break down,
        I heard chanting sounds from sphere
                            that
                 was unknown to me
                            and
    I saw you come down riding a holy sleigh
with a smile that pleased this heart that was slain ;
    you came into my life with a  little surprise,
         enchanted me but became my life,
        you are the answer to my prayers ,
         now am getting accustomed to you ,
                            and
         loving every moment of this game .

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Right now

          Lyrics dedicated to my inspiration :)
       

Every day when I wake up in the morning....I see the bright sun shine that wasn't seen for some time .... I go reeling under your love....you  know, now you are my heart .... you are the one, I waited for to be with me; 

          I feel like painting the sky now,with every possible hue right now....hold me I cant stop from  flying ! 

 When I rise every day I see the sun smiling...I know its your love...that makes the sun smile now...my heart ,you changed my life ....I want you to hear my heart pounding that you soaked in your love;

           I feel like flying right now,towards the sky right now....hold me I cant stop from flying !

 Every day now when I see you smiling.....I feel like kissing your eyes now and give you a little surprise .....I write a few lines and dedicate to you , my love.

       

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Mirth

Love is a strange feeling that can not be expressed in words , sometimes it makes you cry, sometimes smile and  times makes you smell of orchids ! Please read on ....

 No more I feel like a twig,
 The rift now is filled with your redolence,
 That now is my identity;
 My breath now smells of orchids !
 Wait, did you say "You like enchanting my frills"
 My frills are significance of  delirium ,a state that now I live in,
 You want to know the secret behind my mystic eyes ,
 The miracle is  power driven from the ,
 Mirth and joy that  I feel in your existence,
 And will stay as long as am surrounded by your magic;
 Your wand is behind the mysterious eyes !

 Do you know you came late,
Yet flooded this heart with smiles
The smiles that had become now extinct;
You know ,you are now my wings
I will fly as long as you stay put , in this little life
That was close to the brim ,
And thought it was the result of my past ,
My sins!

Now dont go as long as I live
You dont know in your magical field
How I feel.
You said "I am an angel ,I live in your heart"
Hold me , dont lose me in madding crowd.
With your love by my side
I am sure to thrive ,my life
You now have become my wings !


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aahat

                           





lyrics in hindi...
my aplolgies for posting them on this blog , i did think of deleting it fro here but had a change of mind
let it be ,let it be here

  
yeh kaisi awaaz hui,yeh kaisa shoar hua,
ek teer chala,
mere dil ko choo kar nikal gaya.....
yeh kaya hua ,yeh kaisa manzar hai
din mein bhi mujhe chaand dikhne laga.....
main kaya karoon,kiss se khoon,
 mere dil ki dhakan bhi kuch kehne lagi,
main sun ne lagi,
unke kadamon ki aahat ab rukti nahi...
yeh kaisi awaaz hui,yeh kaisa shoar hua
hmm,hm ,hmm ,hm/.....

 dekho mujhe , mujhe kaya hua
mere honthon pe unka naam likha....
roko mujhe, main ruk na paaon
main aur sunder dikhne lagi,
un ki aahat jab se main sun ne lagi...
yeh un ki aahat hi thi,
yeh un  ki aawaz hi thi ,
jisne mujhe jeene ka maqusad diya
yeh kaisi aahat hui,
yeh kaisi awaaz hui,
yeh kaisa shoar hua,
hmm,hm ,hmm ,hm/..


main aub behkne lagi,
mein aub chehkne lagi ,
mujhe kaya hua,
aei duniya walo,
mujh ko sambhalo,
main un se mohabbat karne lagi......
jub se  choo kar unhon ne mujh se kaha.....
woh meri manzil hain,
mera pyaar hain,
yeh kaisi awaaz hui,yeh kaisa shoar hua,
ek teer chala,
mere dil ko choo kar nikal gaya.....
yeh kaya hua ,yeh kaisa manzar hai
din mein bhi mujhe  chaand dikhne laga....
hmm hm hmm hm

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Halo (part ii)

On a chariot
with two wings
on my way
where the angels live
hold your breath
for awhile,while
I speed up towards the halo
that I can see ;
The clouds now
seem to be ready
to shower some silver dust
on none other than me
,look into my eyes
have you seen
me so happybefore in my life ;
Like a bee
now I feel
among the flowers
that look like tiny stars
up in the sky
,I wish you could watch
me hop like a butterfly
around the silver halo up in here;
Can you hear
the silver bells sing
"girl now forget every thing ,
tell your world
to look forthe bright star
shining up in the sky
and that's me "
.

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I am free now...

                                                           

                                       Like a cloud in the sky,
                                        with no wings I can fly,
                                   I need no cave , no hideaway
                                     like a proud  pachyderm ,
                              I walk on the road that is confined
                         to prerogative world with exclusive rights ;
                    I feel now,  I feel now away from melancholy of life .

                                   I am no bird  but I can fly,
                                  I rise and  I dive,I can glide,
                          can fight the fears , those were intense
                overpowered my mind for years but now have condensed ;
                          my heart is confined in four walls of mine
                                I hear no cries ,I have no ties
                       I am free now,I can fly without no wings .

                      Away from the world with exclusive rights ,
            away from the world ,away from the melancholy of this life ,
                  I feel now,I feel free from fake and fictitious ties .
                             
                              Like a storm I walked away
                                       I have no whims
                                 no desires and my craves ,
                                    I left them far away
                      in mendacious world , where no one is real
                                 no more I feel I am frail
                                    like a pachyderm
                               I left ,I have no claims
                  I am free now , free like a cloud I fly away .
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Amen !

                                                                                                               

Can you hear flutter of my wings ,like a butterfly I fly in the air with ocean of dreams.....The odour of musk do you feel when you breathe fresh air that has begun to smell so sweet !

A bunch of stench I left behind now am away from sleaze ,to be in a world that's ready to greet the way I am , I fly and  feel.....with ocean of my dreams I am ready to go glide and find some love for me that's waiting and is life for me...I feel so beautiful  in side , I feel like wearing my dancing shoes and touch the sky !

Hold on to your breath  and look at me , I am dressed in my favourite style to greet  life tonight....all that I need my friends from you is just pray for me . 

amen !

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Oh MAA (mothers day special)

Oh mother I was a seedling  you nurtured me till I grew up , 

though I was seedling but I could hear you scream on my way to this world . 

Your pain I coulnt feel but  I know it was just you and you who could have borne that pain for your loved one 

.You are the one and only one who could  feed me the nectar of love that  poured when I was born . 

Though I am old enough now and have moved on but surprisingly , in pain or in moment of joy the only word  I scream is "Oh Maa , Oh meri Maa" 

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dreams

           

You don't stop dreaming the life is all about dreams , work towards what you want and defeat every dream with a brand new one ; 

When you start feeling ,you cant achieve  and you want to give up ...read my words and start believing in your being and give it one more chance;

Go for it without fear of defeat or failure and think you will achieve what you want , make sure you don't retrieve though your dream may be a tough one ;

Every failure will teach you some thing so don't fear , give your best the result will come .

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Versatile Once again

             Versatile Blogger Once Again 

This is my 6th Versatile Blogger award , and every time I receive an award I begin to wonder whether I really deserve it ? I started blogging for no other reason than venting out my feelings , my emotions sometime in Aug 2010 and for three months ,till Oct  end

there were no readers ,I would just post and sit back wasnt aware that it needs to be linked as well ,LOL . The first person to join my blog was Readitt and my my , was I thrilled na Maha thrilled that after 3 months of effort I got some one to read my blog.

 Well my poetry is on review by some journalists and will be published on their approval ,in the mean time i would like to congratulate Navin Mathew who blogs on http://myrootsmywings.blogspot.in/2012/04/ for receiving the award and also thank  him for passing it on to me.  

There are some rules I need to follow though.

1. Create a new post. Check.

2. Thank the lovely person who nominated you for the award. Check.

3. Pass it on to your fellow bloggers. 

Now the tuffest part , I would actually like to re reward Navin for making me go through this ordeal Of selecting  only 7 bloggers out of the entire list. Well to accept the award I must bear the brunt and here the list of the Bloggers that I would like to recognize and in no particular order

saikat mbka ghosh http://campbuzzz.blogspot.in

serendipity            Little Moments Of Bliss

della   My Garbage

deepak karthik  WHATEVER iT TAKES !

a homemakers utopia A Homemaker's Utopia..

elvira  its my life

leo paw bigbitz-blog

rahul miglani Desire v/s Destiny

raphael ...Ergo, I blog

punamjr  http://punamjr.wordpress.com/

4. State 7 random facts about you.

Seven Random Facts? hmmmmm tough  lemme wear my thinking caps on

1. I am a big time animal lover though dogs are my fav ,i can actually communicate with them
2. -I am a fitness freak
3. -I am a good swimmer though I know all the four strokes but back stroke is my fav 
4. -I am hyper active ,full of energy cant sit still..I dont walk literally run 
5. -I  love to collect curios and ash trays
6. -I hate going to beauty parlours
7. -I crave for a vacation in Kerala , would love to be by myself with my music ,some good wine and sea food 

5. Claim and post the award pic. Check.

That's right. Take a good, long look at it. You are looking at the newest Most Versatile Blogger in this zipcode.

i walk a lonely road

I walk a lonely road ,am alone ,with  no one beside me ;

 The only one I know on this road , on my way back home, is my shadow that walks beside me ;

There's silence on this road ,  no clamour , no chaos , the only sound I hear is when my heart beats ;

 Am neither frightened nor care to wait for a soul , for some one to walk me home, am sure I can travel all alone without a sound or soul with my heart beat  ;

Am an itinerant  on the road , who learnt to ramble alone need no one beside me .

I walk a lonely road.....

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versatile the 4th time:)

I wanna thank fellow blogger and friend Shamsud for this lovely surprise:)I love his posts and they can be read here http://iamdirtyineedwashing.blogspot.in 

                                                     

Time for fulfilling the ritual:

1.     Thank the person who nominated you.
2.     Post a picture of the award on your blog.
3.     Share 7 random thoughts about yourself.
4.     Choose bloggers to pass the award to.
5.     Inform them about it.

7random things

I have a passion for strong cars.

I love swimming 

Am a big time animal lover

Am an extremely emotional person

I am an introvert so rarely make friends

I enjoy meaningful and sentimental music

and I only enjoy horror and hard core action movies:)

Bloggers am passing this award to our the blogs I have recently discovered and started following..am sorry if I missed out on someone will surely make it up to u next time:)

N- Unfold the Folded

emi fo  ! *Beauty is an opinion へようこそ* !

ashish singh  Ashish Says.......

mak JÖurnëy - Nëvër Ënds

sujay sam Confessions for An Agoraphobic

ICY HIGHS

idea molester Prisoner of my own Device...

pallav gogoi  Dejavu

denny  Poetry

animesh shah "yuva indian writer''

dr.sneha A Colloquy Of BitterSweet Love

simon willis Follow Willis!

jen Ripples of Koi

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musketeer

                       

                       Like a raft without an oar,
                       like a kite without a string,
                            I move I swing ,
               though you chopped all my wings ;
                         now when you say
                       that you cant believe ,
                 without an oar without my wings ,
                  without a string how do I swing ;
                            you must know
              I am a knight rider , I need no strings
                am a musketeer , I need no wings ;
                       will prove you wrong
                 that you chopped my wings ,
            will prove your thoughts are your whims ;
            when I cross the bulwark and shall walk ,
                              like a cougar
                and force you to go in deep thoughts ,
                    was  it worth giving me the pain ,
            was it worth hurting me and leaving me slain ;
              you thought you could intimidate this heart ,
                  you only gave me a reason to laugh ,
                           and made me strong ;
                            you never thought
                         like a bull on rampage
                     I shall walk and get what I want ,
                    while you think about your whims
                              and your vows
                that you wont let me reach the shore,
              let me bear sweet agony some sweet pain ,
               that makes me strong and makes me laugh ,
              for a while go back again in deep thoughts
                                      and
                    think of a way  to save your face !

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good bye

 

 Never could I believe .......
 I can live without you ....
without you love ,
Wonderful are my days......
 Magnificent is the sky.......
So are,The Ocean and Waves....
No fear in my mind ,of being carried away....
Beautiful seems my life.......
Satiated I feel inside,
 Feel full of life......
 With no one by my side.......
No one to play games
No one to tell me whats right......
No one to guide........
No one to navigate.......
No one I wait for......
Freedom from chaos,
that was created in my life.....
Didn't know life could be so wonderful without you,
 I took time to realise though ,
am glad I am not too late.......
Now away from sweet nectar that is fake ,
that I thought was life ,
that burnt me inside....
Life seemed aimless in your wait.....
My conversation with the sky made me realise.......
You are a sham ,you are a lie....
You can rip apart my heart.....
You can turn me insane......
Love , you are out now ,
out of my life ,
far away that you cant try.....
try to encroach my heart......
make a place for you to reside.......
I ride another wave now......
towards wisdom.....
towards truth.......
towards light....
that I see towards the end....
I am not too far from , I am told.....
And I need nothing , nor I crave,
crave for being loved has now died.
I left you behind , to look for another slave....
Good bye love , now I am no more insane !

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my con

on my stage

these lines have a deep connection with me 

read between the lines correctly is more important than reading the words

 On my way...
On the road  to his world......
Like a sage... Silent , unheard....
Away from the world....
On a voyage, undisturbed....
On my way I heard a roar....
"Wait, don't proceed ,
unless you have heard  my elucidation ,
on why should you change your course,
remember you are my angel ,my creation ...
your contribution on my stage   .....
before you take exit from my world....
take a little while....
think of the little cry....
you have no right...
to terminate  this life that has just begun  ....
let it blossom into a flower...
and to nurture this life is your role "
I took a turn ,my back towards the road ,
that led to his home ....
my lips pursed into a visible smile.....
 invisible remorse ,unhappy though ....
but being an ardent admirer of his world  I bowed .
I feel no pain nor it hurts...
Like a sloe I learnt to grow in to a fruit on a thorny shrub....
and wait for this life to take its own course and time...
when I shall lie engulfed in bright light...
until then neither I will complain nor peek into his home ,
 I vowed !

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