with my smile

                                         
                                                         
                                                                  

                                        You like to write , the way you like!
                                                      To take pride,
                                                       is your right !
                                                  You are supreme
                                                 but I am your child !
                                               You gave me a mind,
                                              can be wicked at times !
                                           Now I made up my mind
                                                      I will not fight ,
                                                 I am sure I will find
                                                              a
                                         way to divert your attention ,
                                                    from this child !
                                                    May be I can
                                                tantalise your mind ,
                                                    with my smile !
                                                        Am sure
                                        you wont think of me all the while ,
                                                           but
                                               the enchanting smile !
                                                      And  if  I do
                                                        succeed ,
                                    I will make sure , you change my life !
                                              I know you are wise !
                                                        But I see
                                                             no
                                            reason , why shouldnt I try
                                                     to entice you
                                                    with my smile !
                                                         If I am
                                                 able to delude you ,
                                                     you are sure
                                                             to
                                                   write my destiny ,
                                                     the way i like !
                                          No matter how I endavour ,
                                         will leave no stone unturned ,
                                           to get away with my smile!
                                         Gonna be wicked this time !
                                            Am going to give it a try !
                                             Am detrmined this time !
                                              Hope you wont mind !
                                             Am left with no choice,
                                               but, to delude you
                                                        if i can
                                                  with my smile !
                              And  make you re-write my destiny the way i like !

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mockery

      

Life , in search of musk  I drift. .....propelled like a vagabond  ..... in search of  landing   ground

            I move like a butterfly ,dancing amo-ng the flowers ..... in spring !!!!

            Like a herring gull , in search of food and shelter... I expedite my voyage of uncertainty.........

            Please, try to understand my disarray ...... I am not asking for a preferential treatment but am prying for an answer................ from you for my morbidity.......................

            Though my mind is  in state of paramnesia, I am still not trying to unla-de my encumbrance on you

              but trying to find an elucidation for this mockery!!

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endless wait

                                                   
                                                     Wait  , my endless wait
                                                          naked my body ,
                                                        hacked to ground ,
                                               trying to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  you must,uncover my fate ,
                                                            naked i lay
                                                 for you , to heal my wounds ,
                                                             strayed ,
                                                               lost ,
                                                       need some light ,
                                                       show me the way ,
                                                        heal my soul ,
                                                        naked i lay,
                                                      on bare ground !
                                                      Don't go away ,
                                                     cast your sights ,
                                                    try to hear my sighs ,
                                                         my pride ,
                                                          my ego ,
                                                        everything ,
                                                     I lost on the way ,
                                                       need no bathe ,
                                                       my naked soul ,
                                                   showers of  sun shine ,
                                                      let it embrace
                                                            and
                                                  take away some pain !
                                                     My endless wait ,
                                                      for an embrace ,
                                                      take me home,
                                                      am now cold ,
                                                   left with no place ,
                                                  petite I have become ,
                                                        in front fate !
                                                            In
                                                     my fight to  rise ,
                                                         my hair
                                                          now
                                                         turned ,
                                               some silver and some grey ,
                                                     still no respite ,
                                               need you to  hold me tight ,
                                                   eyes, they gaze
                                                   through the dark ,
                                                          ears
                                              I try to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  echos is all i hear ,
                                                nothing is very clear ,
                                                     I lit a light ,
                                                in a secluded place ,
                                                need your favour ,
                                                 read out my fate ,
                                                         else
                                                  blow away the light ,
                                              I lit in a secluded place ,
                                            to distract your attention
                                                    for you to
                                                  pay attention ,
                                                         on
                                                    petite this life ,
                                                  frail  my frame ,
                                                 my endless wait !
                                            Pleasure would be mine ,
                                     if you passed by my secret place
                                                   where i lay
                                             naked and chaste ,
                                                          no
                                                  need to bathe ,
                                                          I
                                              left every thing behind
                                               for a little embrace !
                                                   
                                              
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oomph !

        one more attempt to compose lyrics , here it goes....        

                                                                                  

You swept me off my feet when you looked into my eyes....my heart skipped a beat when you came close ...didn't know where to hide from your eyes.. when I saw the oomph in you.

I felt my blood race through my body....and had no control when you sighed.....when I saw the oomph in you

 I trembled when you came , I simmered when you came ........  I looked away to hide what i felt in side...Iwas bubbling in pain , I fumbled when you asked my name....I trembled and looked away.

Often I think of you, when I was on my way to brines.....you came too close that I lost my senses ...I forgot who was I, and why was i going to brines.....when I saw the oomph in you.

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odyssey

                                                                                                    
 Lonely roads
Take me home
Am through with saga
Am through with pain
 I see no sunshine
I see no smiling face

 Take me home
Have no remorse
Here I wait
 In the  twilight
In search of sunshine
And  the moonlight
With a heart in grave pain

 Take me home
Need no frowns
 Like a wildfowl
I fly from place to place

 I seek some enshrine
A benign smile to light my voyage
 No melancholy when I am on  my way

 Want to hear the chimes
And see some silver light
Towards the end of odyssey
Towards the end of lonely roads
I heard..... one feels no pain.

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fire

                                                                                

I look at the daffodils and watch them  smile...I look at the flamboyant trees they have begun to touch the sky  .....I look at the dew gathered on leaves and realise , its onset of spring ....i close my eyes to feel the breeze so mild.

My gaze through the isle  leads me to empty wild and I realise..... you are no where , I lost you from my sights....... now when  I see every thing around me is on fire ....though empty inside but I feel so wild . 

 I  lost you , and now when am lonesome in awe inspiring spring  ..... .......I feel you should come back to me ....I wait for you in my dreams... I want you to hold me while I sleep....what an awesome feeling .

 I don't want to be deprived of this feel ...... I  feel so wild, with silence around me...when every thing around me seems to be on fire.

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"O" my dear life

             

                                 

                                                                 I wonder ,
                                                                who I am ,
                                                      where did I come from,
                                                 where and when I am gonna go ,
                                                                    who
                                                                 do I love,
                                                                who is this
                                                               who I  hate,
                                                           who do I belive in ,
                                                               who I dont,
                                                        who do I write about ,
                                                          my illusive world,
                                                             my thoughts ,
                                                              my dreams ,
                                                          all put together
                                                              force me ,
                                                         to contemplate
                                                      in my illusory world ,
                                                         my virtual love !
                                                             Is this,
                                                     how I am gonna go ?
                                                  The gloominess in mind ,
                                             painful have become my strides ,
                                                     try to read my stars ,
                                                     try to read my palms ,
                                                  at no conclusion, I arrive !
                                                           Will
                                                         go on ,
                                                  few mor years ,
                                                may be a decade ,
                                                         solace ,
                                              I can see is not in my fate !
                                                       but why,
                                               Where did I go wrong ?
                                                   What is my fault ?
                                             Why did you not choose
                                                     to cuddle me ,
                                  the way you do it with your loved ones ,
                                             And give me some respite ?
                                                     Am broken,
                                                       cant rise,
                                                  tears in my eyes,
                                                  have now dried !
                                                    Crave for life,
                                                   has now died !
                                                   My ambitions,
                                                     my desires,
                                           no more I am enticed by,
                                                  "O" my dear life !
                                                       Now
                                             when i have opined ,
                                                  least you care
                                                 for this li'll one ,
                                                   dont take
                                                no more time ,
                                               show me the way
                                               to exit "O"my life !
                                               Scattered my soul ,
                                                 bits and pieces
                                                 of my heart ,
                                                     now,
                                              need some rest,
                                                if i can find !
                                                 Let me go
                                                   now ,
                                                   but
                                                    a
                                        querry I shall make ,
                                    when we are face to face ,
                                         how could you
                                                 be ,
                                              at times ,
                                              ruthless
                                    "O" MY DEAR LIFE !

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paragon of deceit

                                                                                                              

 I like the ruse in those eyes ..... I know  your claim that "you are in love with me "...is not true , is a lie..

I look into those beautiful eyes , the paragon of deceit.... I admire the way they lie.....

I hear your paradox and i smile....you think I am a stooge , I'll believe those eyes ....I know they conceal the truth ....but I don't divulge that I can see behind your eyes...

Now when i have seen , the world of dupe ....it doesn't seem , I can believe those eyes....eternally , I try to see  what goes on behind the smile in those eyes....though at times  I feel , its an ordeal when you cant believe, no one, who comes in to your life.

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next life

           

I am in a wonder land , like butterfly I fly....in search of nectar , from bloom to bloom I fly ....at times its  rosemary, at times its orchids .............at times daffodils , every day and night until I am breathless  but no respite i find

Don't you think you are prejudiced and unfair...else  what did I do to deserve distress this life ...neither you answer my prayers , nor you confer some compassion ....no matter how hard I may try to please you my life

Now when you have made up your mind , not to relieve me of pain this life...lets make a deal for next life..I want only laughter , no pain next life....tell me now , what do you want me from me, so that I don't have to die a death each day next life. 

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marvels of destiny

                                                                                                         

In ruins I laugh , I smile when you say........ "your defeat is eminent,you have failed" my stars you say "are eclipsed and I should accept my fate"..I turn my face with a mischief  in my eyes ,I gallop like a stallion and ignore the pain

Your stern eyes you know are fake....your laughter ,and my disasters are marvels of destiny....I Will bear the pain ,I know I have to sustain though i may be bereft of life

With a smile on my face , here's my invite....if you could entice my fate , I will be your slave...you can captivate me for life..the only bargain I can suggest my life......it would be great if you can free me from anguish this life.

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eternity

                                     
                                       
       
                                               like I said
                                  I am no one to write my destiny
                                             I am a pebble
                                           that you have cast
                                           I am your creation
                                            I am at your feet
                                      confer some love on me
                                            I am your child
                            inadvertently I may have  gone wrong
                                       with no knowledge
                                            no wisdom
                                 but now I feel, I should seek
                                 an asylum,a refuge in thee
                          I am forthright,candid while  I speak
                                 wrap me in your vast arms
                                 I need no love,no materials
                                        need only a cover
                            from glitter and glaze of this world
                                    lead me I am your slave
                            I wait for you to sprawl your arms
                                show me the way to eternity
                                        I wait for you
                                           my lord

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what you sow is what you reap

                                              
                                                                

                                                                       

                        


                                                    You still had a chance
                                                            You let go
                                                               And
                                                            You lost
                                                         You thought
                                              You could liquefy my heart
                                                             But
                                              There was , now no chance
                                             You gave nothing but pain
                                                            And
                                       Lied when ever you had a chance
                                        You,  yourself are to be blamed
                                             Now don't blame it on god
                               Eternal darkness you said is what you seek
                                                   Penance,repentance
                                           No family,no friends,no home
                                                    No one to care for
                                           Just burning streets you cruise
                                                     Eyes downcast
                                                Avoiding a direct look
                                                         Why you?
                                                Look in to your heart
                                               Look back at your past
                                        What you sow is what you reap
                                                  This is your fate
                                                Don't be so aghast
                                                          Now
                                              Face it with some grace
                                           No questions you should ask
                                                   
                                                       Since,I am
                                                       Now gone
                                    But I care, as a human being I am there
                                               Life gives you one chance
                                                  You grab it or lose it
                                                       Don't sulk
                                                 Look for new path
                                                           But
                                                Be honest to yourself
                                                  Defrost your heart
                                             Look in to your own eyes
                                          Every morning when you rise
                                   If you are able to gaze into your eyes
                               If you able to look straight when you smile
                                              No one is there to stop
                                                You from grabbing
                                                   What you want
                                            Make no mistake this time
                                                    Life is angry
                                                     With you
                                        You need to purify your heart
                                               Before you ask
                                                        For
                                          Blessings from almighty
                                                       Who
                                      Makes you pay for your wrongs
                                       In this life, right here, right now
                                         There;s no hell ,no paradise.

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