endless wait

                                                   
                                                     Wait  , my endless wait
                                                          naked my body ,
                                                        hacked to ground ,
                                               trying to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  you must,uncover my fate ,
                                                            naked i lay
                                                 for you , to heal my wounds ,
                                                             strayed ,
                                                               lost ,
                                                       need some light ,
                                                       show me the way ,
                                                        heal my soul ,
                                                        naked i lay,
                                                      on bare ground !
                                                      Don't go away ,
                                                     cast your sights ,
                                                    try to hear my sighs ,
                                                         my pride ,
                                                          my ego ,
                                                        everything ,
                                                     I lost on the way ,
                                                       need no bathe ,
                                                       my naked soul ,
                                                   showers of  sun shine ,
                                                      let it embrace
                                                            and
                                                  take away some pain !
                                                     My endless wait ,
                                                      for an embrace ,
                                                      take me home,
                                                      am now cold ,
                                                   left with no place ,
                                                  petite I have become ,
                                                        in front fate !
                                                            In
                                                     my fight to  rise ,
                                                         my hair
                                                          now
                                                         turned ,
                                               some silver and some grey ,
                                                     still no respite ,
                                               need you to  hold me tight ,
                                                   eyes, they gaze
                                                   through the dark ,
                                                          ears
                                              I try to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  echos is all i hear ,
                                                nothing is very clear ,
                                                     I lit a light ,
                                                in a secluded place ,
                                                need your favour ,
                                                 read out my fate ,
                                                         else
                                                  blow away the light ,
                                              I lit in a secluded place ,
                                            to distract your attention
                                                    for you to
                                                  pay attention ,
                                                         on
                                                    petite this life ,
                                                  frail  my frame ,
                                                 my endless wait !
                                            Pleasure would be mine ,
                                     if you passed by my secret place
                                                   where i lay
                                             naked and chaste ,
                                                          no
                                                  need to bathe ,
                                                          I
                                              left every thing behind
                                               for a little embrace !
                                                   
                                              
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oomph !

        one more attempt to compose lyrics , here it goes....        

                                                                                  

You swept me off my feet when you looked into my eyes....my heart skipped a beat when you came close ...didn't know where to hide from your eyes.. when I saw the oomph in you.

I felt my blood race through my body....and had no control when you sighed.....when I saw the oomph in you

 I trembled when you came , I simmered when you came ........  I looked away to hide what i felt in side...Iwas bubbling in pain , I fumbled when you asked my name....I trembled and looked away.

Often I think of you, when I was on my way to brines.....you came too close that I lost my senses ...I forgot who was I, and why was i going to brines.....when I saw the oomph in you.

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odyssey

                                                                                                    
 Lonely roads
Take me home
Am through with saga
Am through with pain
 I see no sunshine
I see no smiling face

 Take me home
Have no remorse
Here I wait
 In the  twilight
In search of sunshine
And  the moonlight
With a heart in grave pain

 Take me home
Need no frowns
 Like a wildfowl
I fly from place to place

 I seek some enshrine
A benign smile to light my voyage
 No melancholy when I am on  my way

 Want to hear the chimes
And see some silver light
Towards the end of odyssey
Towards the end of lonely roads
I heard..... one feels no pain.

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fire

                                                                                

I look at the daffodils and watch them  smile...I look at the flamboyant trees they have begun to touch the sky  .....I look at the dew gathered on leaves and realise , its onset of spring ....i close my eyes to feel the breeze so mild.

My gaze through the isle  leads me to empty wild and I realise..... you are no where , I lost you from my sights....... now when  I see every thing around me is on fire ....though empty inside but I feel so wild . 

 I  lost you , and now when am lonesome in awe inspiring spring  ..... .......I feel you should come back to me ....I wait for you in my dreams... I want you to hold me while I sleep....what an awesome feeling .

 I don't want to be deprived of this feel ...... I  feel so wild, with silence around me...when every thing around me seems to be on fire.

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"O" my dear life

             

                                 

                                                                 I wonder ,
                                                                who I am ,
                                                      where did I come from,
                                                 where and when I am gonna go ,
                                                                    who
                                                                 do I love,
                                                                who is this
                                                               who I  hate,
                                                           who do I belive in ,
                                                               who I dont,
                                                        who do I write about ,
                                                          my illusive world,
                                                             my thoughts ,
                                                              my dreams ,
                                                          all put together
                                                              force me ,
                                                         to contemplate
                                                      in my illusory world ,
                                                         my virtual love !
                                                             Is this,
                                                     how I am gonna go ?
                                                  The gloominess in mind ,
                                             painful have become my strides ,
                                                     try to read my stars ,
                                                     try to read my palms ,
                                                  at no conclusion, I arrive !
                                                           Will
                                                         go on ,
                                                  few mor years ,
                                                may be a decade ,
                                                         solace ,
                                              I can see is not in my fate !
                                                       but why,
                                               Where did I go wrong ?
                                                   What is my fault ?
                                             Why did you not choose
                                                     to cuddle me ,
                                  the way you do it with your loved ones ,
                                             And give me some respite ?
                                                     Am broken,
                                                       cant rise,
                                                  tears in my eyes,
                                                  have now dried !
                                                    Crave for life,
                                                   has now died !
                                                   My ambitions,
                                                     my desires,
                                           no more I am enticed by,
                                                  "O" my dear life !
                                                       Now
                                             when i have opined ,
                                                  least you care
                                                 for this li'll one ,
                                                   dont take
                                                no more time ,
                                               show me the way
                                               to exit "O"my life !
                                               Scattered my soul ,
                                                 bits and pieces
                                                 of my heart ,
                                                     now,
                                              need some rest,
                                                if i can find !
                                                 Let me go
                                                   now ,
                                                   but
                                                    a
                                        querry I shall make ,
                                    when we are face to face ,
                                         how could you
                                                 be ,
                                              at times ,
                                              ruthless
                                    "O" MY DEAR LIFE !

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paragon of deceit

                                                                                                              

 I like the ruse in those eyes ..... I know  your claim that "you are in love with me "...is not true , is a lie..

I look into those beautiful eyes , the paragon of deceit.... I admire the way they lie.....

I hear your paradox and i smile....you think I am a stooge , I'll believe those eyes ....I know they conceal the truth ....but I don't divulge that I can see behind your eyes...

Now when i have seen , the world of dupe ....it doesn't seem , I can believe those eyes....eternally , I try to see  what goes on behind the smile in those eyes....though at times  I feel , its an ordeal when you cant believe, no one, who comes in to your life.

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next life

           

I am in a wonder land , like butterfly I fly....in search of nectar , from bloom to bloom I fly ....at times its  rosemary, at times its orchids .............at times daffodils , every day and night until I am breathless  but no respite i find

Don't you think you are prejudiced and unfair...else  what did I do to deserve distress this life ...neither you answer my prayers , nor you confer some compassion ....no matter how hard I may try to please you my life

Now when you have made up your mind , not to relieve me of pain this life...lets make a deal for next life..I want only laughter , no pain next life....tell me now , what do you want me from me, so that I don't have to die a death each day next life. 

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marvels of destiny

                                                                                                         

In ruins I laugh , I smile when you say........ "your defeat is eminent,you have failed" my stars you say "are eclipsed and I should accept my fate"..I turn my face with a mischief  in my eyes ,I gallop like a stallion and ignore the pain

Your stern eyes you know are fake....your laughter ,and my disasters are marvels of destiny....I Will bear the pain ,I know I have to sustain though i may be bereft of life

With a smile on my face , here's my invite....if you could entice my fate , I will be your slave...you can captivate me for life..the only bargain I can suggest my life......it would be great if you can free me from anguish this life.

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eternity

                                     
                                       
       
                                               like I said
                                  I am no one to write my destiny
                                             I am a pebble
                                           that you have cast
                                           I am your creation
                                            I am at your feet
                                      confer some love on me
                                            I am your child
                            inadvertently I may have  gone wrong
                                       with no knowledge
                                            no wisdom
                                 but now I feel, I should seek
                                 an asylum,a refuge in thee
                          I am forthright,candid while  I speak
                                 wrap me in your vast arms
                                 I need no love,no materials
                                        need only a cover
                            from glitter and glaze of this world
                                    lead me I am your slave
                            I wait for you to sprawl your arms
                                show me the way to eternity
                                        I wait for you
                                           my lord

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what you sow is what you reap

                                              
                                                                

                                                                       

                        


                                                    You still had a chance
                                                            You let go
                                                               And
                                                            You lost
                                                         You thought
                                              You could liquefy my heart
                                                             But
                                              There was , now no chance
                                             You gave nothing but pain
                                                            And
                                       Lied when ever you had a chance
                                        You,  yourself are to be blamed
                                             Now don't blame it on god
                               Eternal darkness you said is what you seek
                                                   Penance,repentance
                                           No family,no friends,no home
                                                    No one to care for
                                           Just burning streets you cruise
                                                     Eyes downcast
                                                Avoiding a direct look
                                                         Why you?
                                                Look in to your heart
                                               Look back at your past
                                        What you sow is what you reap
                                                  This is your fate
                                                Don't be so aghast
                                                          Now
                                              Face it with some grace
                                           No questions you should ask
                                                   
                                                       Since,I am
                                                       Now gone
                                    But I care, as a human being I am there
                                               Life gives you one chance
                                                  You grab it or lose it
                                                       Don't sulk
                                                 Look for new path
                                                           But
                                                Be honest to yourself
                                                  Defrost your heart
                                             Look in to your own eyes
                                          Every morning when you rise
                                   If you are able to gaze into your eyes
                               If you able to look straight when you smile
                                              No one is there to stop
                                                You from grabbing
                                                   What you want
                                            Make no mistake this time
                                                    Life is angry
                                                     With you
                                        You need to purify your heart
                                               Before you ask
                                                        For
                                          Blessings from almighty
                                                       Who
                                      Makes you pay for your wrongs
                                       In this life, right here, right now
                                         There;s no hell ,no paradise.

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first time in my life

                                                            

It was a beautiful moment of my life......when I saw the passion he had in  in his eyes...and he kissed my hands and said " you were meant for me,where were you hiding all this while"

I saw his face flush and lips purse into a smile...when he wrapped me in his arms and said  " hold me tight  baby "...under wrap my feelings and  I looked away....  letting him not read my eyes and my heart say "don't leave me tonight "

 Carried away by the feel ...I looked away and  I heard him say " Now I have got you into my sights ... I wont let you go, go away ..now you ought to mine baby ....for rest of my life "

I looked at the calm on his face...and watched him smile  when he heard me say "  I am in love with you ..all I can say... darling I know you are mine "  

...... I have  tears in my eyes ....when I think of ....the most beautiful moment of my life....when I gave,  my heart away.... the first time in my life.

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the Midas touch

                                                                           

                                       You thrust hard my benevolent heart
                                                now when I  am gone
                                              followed by your envoy
                                                   that I don't trust

                                                  now when your
                                                   envoy conveys
                                               that whatever you touch
                                                     turns into dust
                                                          that
                                        you don't have the Midas touch
                                               
                                                    I feel its time
                                               for me to suggest

                                                   live you must
                                                  in agony in pain
                                             you don't need no touch
                                                 to turn you into dust

                                                 your smugness
                                                   your lust
                                      has worked against you and
                                                   is a must
                                        the god you don't trust
                                     made you go through a test
                                                  you failed
                                               your arrogance
                                              that you can write
                                                 your destiny
                                                  has failed

                                             you hurt me hard
                                      now let destiny play its part
                                        don't follow me around
                                            I am not a clown
                                             I don't believe in
                                               your claims

                                   though I don't believe in god
                                   but my deeds are no wrong
                                   its karma , though I sound
                                            a little tough
                                    but i don't want to rust
                                in a world that you cant trust

                                      if you take my advice
                                    put yourself through a test
                                      fill up the questionnaire
                                     see how many times
                                         you have thrust
                                      this benevolent heart
                                               now
                               you have no right to claim
                                              mercy
                                      nor compassion
                                        your ordeal
                                    is self proclaimed


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stay away

                                                

                                                                


                                         if you think i am a doll
                                             when you feel like
                                          you can play with me
                                             i am a figurine

                                         you can take a walk
                                            i am a stalwart
                                       you cant play with me
                                           
                                     i have changed my mind
                                   i have seen through your lies
                                      i know you are a guile
                                       i have no faith in thee

                                      i suggest look for a liar
                                          to suit your style
                          and stay away from me with your sleaze
                                       

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pristine love

                                              
Love is eternal for me, an immutable feeling I seek ...try to read my heart and you will see I am a messenger of love....lost in mercenary and unscrupulous world....and I feel life can be beautiful if you could see it through my eyes...
But some how I have my qualms and i don't believe in thee.... I feel you are a chauvinist ,who exists for lust and worldly pleasures ....and  you are unaware of pristine love I talk about.....

If you think you can walk hand in hand with me.... from you , a great sacrifice I seek....give up the materialistic and lustful life for me....the betrayal is the last thing I want to see..... drown me in your heart and let go your pride if you truly seek my love.
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beautiful smile

Now if you wanna come back in my life, you will have to convince my heart....   I am not the one, who will let you get away with that beautiful smile nor those crafty eyes....   

Don't you think you can sweep my heart , I see the lie behind that salient smile....if you think your present can be mine and the future I don't wanna talk  about.....

Give me a promise that you would be mine, your past you will erase from your mind... if you abide by  my conditions , I can give it a thought  and give you one last chance...

Don't you think you can get away with your lies...i have now known your maneuver style .....  swear upon life , you will not  smile  .... I don't want to get enraptured by your smile , that now  I know  is a beautiful lie .

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you are so beautiful

I felt the freshness in the air when he said  "you are so beautiful and  I want you to be mine" that made me smile...

I felt his breath close to mine when he said " you are so beautiful be mine for rest of your life " and  I smiled.....

I looked into his eyes and saw the assurance when he came close and whispered "  when I am there don't question your life , I will make sure you get everything you desire , just hold my hand and you will find , from now on you are the one who lives in my heart and mind ..."

In disbelief  I looked at the red carpet he lay when I arrived ......I looked at my self in the mirror through his eyes while  "you are so beautiful " kept  ringing in my mind ..I wish to be in this bliss for rest of my life.

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friday night

         This is my 3rd attempt to compose lyrics , your feed back would  be appreciated ...critics are most welcome

                                              

Friday night , I saw a shooting star ...and  I heard a Willet call .... I couldn't stop my gaze, at  sky ...I got so moved , that night .... it was in middle of night.....

The night was though ,  pitch dark...but  shooting star ,  threw gush of light.....made me wonder.... why the sky was  dark...and there were no .. stars in  sky.....and where was the moon.... that  night....Icouldn't hear..... a sound that night...and i heard..... the Willet call .... in middle of night....

I blinked my eyes..... at mesmerising that night....and I saw..... some one move behind the bush that night...I gaped and blinked that night...it was a Friday night...

 I tip toed..... towards the bush and was sure....I am in , for a pleasant surprise....and I heard the Willet babble that night " don't let him go tonight " and we moved and jived that night...the shooting star smiled at us.. that night...it was a Friday night.

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hear my heart beat

                                                          

                                                                                          

when i need you love , i close my eyes and think of you.....the emotions go high and i can see you.....engraved in my heart ....... and i can feel you hold me in your arms ....

overwhelmed in love when i look around for you.....i lose you my heart but your aroma i feel still floats in the air.

love me my heart....you are the only treasure i ever sought..... i  cherish every moment spent  in your arms .....and am glad that we met.

don't you say , i am in love with virtual love but hear me when i say ...  feel my heart beat and ask why does it crave for love ....its just that i chose not to bare my heart ..so don't conclude what you see with your bare eyes or on a hearsay  .

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dont mourn no more

                                         

                    you try to hold ......... i 'll fly , i'll go.........i thought i will let you    know.............................

you try to control.... i am a free bird...i will go from your life  , i thought i ' ll let you know

hope you know....i live my life on my terms....i wont let close till i am too sure...i think you know by now...

life is never  so kind nor i  need to remind....you are not alone but i too have my share of grouse that i dont show but i found a way to pour.....

sticky situations are a part of life..........distress will come and go...dont mourn no more just watch me smile as i feel  the pain grow...still i roar...i need no more a shoulder to pour but some one to share few smiles that i would like to adore for rest of my life. 

  
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fate

i fell in love ...but life , like you said " i am afraid , its not in your fate ".... before the spring could break , i lost my love .....with a broken heart , i  gaze at the ocean but it seems to have no cure for my pain.....i gaze at the sky in search of  some alleviate for my pain...and it says " darling , i cant change your fate" 

 each and every fragment of my heart now wails " give me some love "....life you have to hear me out ....don't denude me , i am in deep pain..... .....you can not turn back on me or walk away and leave me  suffering when my heart is slaughtered once again.....

it may sound like i have lost my mind,but i don't care.....life you will have to write my fate,once again ......no matter you may have to fight with my destiny but don't leave me burning in this pain.

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