I am free now...

                                                           

                                       Like a cloud in the sky,
                                        with no wings I can fly,
                                   I need no cave , no hideaway
                                     like a proud  pachyderm ,
                              I walk on the road that is confined
                         to prerogative world with exclusive rights ;
                    I feel now,  I feel now away from melancholy of life .

                                   I am no bird  but I can fly,
                                  I rise and  I dive,I can glide,
                          can fight the fears , those were intense
                overpowered my mind for years but now have condensed ;
                          my heart is confined in four walls of mine
                                I hear no cries ,I have no ties
                       I am free now,I can fly without no wings .

                      Away from the world with exclusive rights ,
            away from the world ,away from the melancholy of this life ,
                  I feel now,I feel free from fake and fictitious ties .
                             
                              Like a storm I walked away
                                       I have no whims
                                 no desires and my craves ,
                                    I left them far away
                      in mendacious world , where no one is real
                                 no more I feel I am frail
                                    like a pachyderm
                               I left ,I have no claims
                  I am free now , free like a cloud I fly away .
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Amen !

                                                                                                               

Can you hear flutter of my wings ,like a butterfly I fly in the air with ocean of dreams.....The odour of musk do you feel when you breathe fresh air that has begun to smell so sweet !

A bunch of stench I left behind now am away from sleaze ,to be in a world that's ready to greet the way I am , I fly and  feel.....with ocean of my dreams I am ready to go glide and find some love for me that's waiting and is life for me...I feel so beautiful  in side , I feel like wearing my dancing shoes and touch the sky !

Hold on to your breath  and look at me , I am dressed in my favourite style to greet  life tonight....all that I need my friends from you is just pray for me . 

amen !

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Oh MAA (mothers day special)

Oh mother I was a seedling  you nurtured me till I grew up , 

though I was seedling but I could hear you scream on my way to this world . 

Your pain I coulnt feel but  I know it was just you and you who could have borne that pain for your loved one 

.You are the one and only one who could  feed me the nectar of love that  poured when I was born . 

Though I am old enough now and have moved on but surprisingly , in pain or in moment of joy the only word  I scream is "Oh Maa , Oh meri Maa" 

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dreams

           

You don't stop dreaming the life is all about dreams , work towards what you want and defeat every dream with a brand new one ; 

When you start feeling ,you cant achieve  and you want to give up ...read my words and start believing in your being and give it one more chance;

Go for it without fear of defeat or failure and think you will achieve what you want , make sure you don't retrieve though your dream may be a tough one ;

Every failure will teach you some thing so don't fear , give your best the result will come .

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Versatile Once again

             Versatile Blogger Once Again 

This is my 6th Versatile Blogger award , and every time I receive an award I begin to wonder whether I really deserve it ? I started blogging for no other reason than venting out my feelings , my emotions sometime in Aug 2010 and for three months ,till Oct  end

there were no readers ,I would just post and sit back wasnt aware that it needs to be linked as well ,LOL . The first person to join my blog was Readitt and my my , was I thrilled na Maha thrilled that after 3 months of effort I got some one to read my blog.

 Well my poetry is on review by some journalists and will be published on their approval ,in the mean time i would like to congratulate Navin Mathew who blogs on http://myrootsmywings.blogspot.in/2012/04/ for receiving the award and also thank  him for passing it on to me.  

There are some rules I need to follow though.

1. Create a new post. Check.

2. Thank the lovely person who nominated you for the award. Check.

3. Pass it on to your fellow bloggers. 

Now the tuffest part , I would actually like to re reward Navin for making me go through this ordeal Of selecting  only 7 bloggers out of the entire list. Well to accept the award I must bear the brunt and here the list of the Bloggers that I would like to recognize and in no particular order

saikat mbka ghosh http://campbuzzz.blogspot.in

serendipity            Little Moments Of Bliss

della   My Garbage

deepak karthik  WHATEVER iT TAKES !

a homemakers utopia A Homemaker's Utopia..

elvira  its my life

leo paw bigbitz-blog

rahul miglani Desire v/s Destiny

raphael ...Ergo, I blog

punamjr  http://punamjr.wordpress.com/

4. State 7 random facts about you.

Seven Random Facts? hmmmmm tough  lemme wear my thinking caps on

1. I am a big time animal lover though dogs are my fav ,i can actually communicate with them
2. -I am a fitness freak
3. -I am a good swimmer though I know all the four strokes but back stroke is my fav 
4. -I am hyper active ,full of energy cant sit still..I dont walk literally run 
5. -I  love to collect curios and ash trays
6. -I hate going to beauty parlours
7. -I crave for a vacation in Kerala , would love to be by myself with my music ,some good wine and sea food 

5. Claim and post the award pic. Check.

That's right. Take a good, long look at it. You are looking at the newest Most Versatile Blogger in this zipcode.

i walk a lonely road

I walk a lonely road ,am alone ,with  no one beside me ;

 The only one I know on this road , on my way back home, is my shadow that walks beside me ;

There's silence on this road ,  no clamour , no chaos , the only sound I hear is when my heart beats ;

 Am neither frightened nor care to wait for a soul , for some one to walk me home, am sure I can travel all alone without a sound or soul with my heart beat  ;

Am an itinerant  on the road , who learnt to ramble alone need no one beside me .

I walk a lonely road.....

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versatile the 4th time:)

I wanna thank fellow blogger and friend Shamsud for this lovely surprise:)I love his posts and they can be read here http://iamdirtyineedwashing.blogspot.in 

                                                     

Time for fulfilling the ritual:

1.     Thank the person who nominated you.
2.     Post a picture of the award on your blog.
3.     Share 7 random thoughts about yourself.
4.     Choose bloggers to pass the award to.
5.     Inform them about it.

7random things

I have a passion for strong cars.

I love swimming 

Am a big time animal lover

Am an extremely emotional person

I am an introvert so rarely make friends

I enjoy meaningful and sentimental music

and I only enjoy horror and hard core action movies:)

Bloggers am passing this award to our the blogs I have recently discovered and started following..am sorry if I missed out on someone will surely make it up to u next time:)

N- Unfold the Folded

emi fo  ! *Beauty is an opinion へようこそ* !

ashish singh  Ashish Says.......

mak JÖurnëy - Nëvër Ënds

sujay sam Confessions for An Agoraphobic

ICY HIGHS

idea molester Prisoner of my own Device...

pallav gogoi  Dejavu

denny  Poetry

animesh shah "yuva indian writer''

dr.sneha A Colloquy Of BitterSweet Love

simon willis Follow Willis!

jen Ripples of Koi

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musketeer

                       

                       Like a raft without an oar,
                       like a kite without a string,
                            I move I swing ,
               though you chopped all my wings ;
                         now when you say
                       that you cant believe ,
                 without an oar without my wings ,
                  without a string how do I swing ;
                            you must know
              I am a knight rider , I need no strings
                am a musketeer , I need no wings ;
                       will prove you wrong
                 that you chopped my wings ,
            will prove your thoughts are your whims ;
            when I cross the bulwark and shall walk ,
                              like a cougar
                and force you to go in deep thoughts ,
                    was  it worth giving me the pain ,
            was it worth hurting me and leaving me slain ;
              you thought you could intimidate this heart ,
                  you only gave me a reason to laugh ,
                           and made me strong ;
                            you never thought
                         like a bull on rampage
                     I shall walk and get what I want ,
                    while you think about your whims
                              and your vows
                that you wont let me reach the shore,
              let me bear sweet agony some sweet pain ,
               that makes me strong and makes me laugh ,
              for a while go back again in deep thoughts
                                      and
                    think of a way  to save your face !

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good bye

 

 Never could I believe .......
 I can live without you ....
without you love ,
Wonderful are my days......
 Magnificent is the sky.......
So are,The Ocean and Waves....
No fear in my mind ,of being carried away....
Beautiful seems my life.......
Satiated I feel inside,
 Feel full of life......
 With no one by my side.......
No one to play games
No one to tell me whats right......
No one to guide........
No one to navigate.......
No one I wait for......
Freedom from chaos,
that was created in my life.....
Didn't know life could be so wonderful without you,
 I took time to realise though ,
am glad I am not too late.......
Now away from sweet nectar that is fake ,
that I thought was life ,
that burnt me inside....
Life seemed aimless in your wait.....
My conversation with the sky made me realise.......
You are a sham ,you are a lie....
You can rip apart my heart.....
You can turn me insane......
Love , you are out now ,
out of my life ,
far away that you cant try.....
try to encroach my heart......
make a place for you to reside.......
I ride another wave now......
towards wisdom.....
towards truth.......
towards light....
that I see towards the end....
I am not too far from , I am told.....
And I need nothing , nor I crave,
crave for being loved has now died.
I left you behind , to look for another slave....
Good bye love , now I am no more insane !

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my con

on my stage

these lines have a deep connection with me 

read between the lines correctly is more important than reading the words

 On my way...
On the road  to his world......
Like a sage... Silent , unheard....
Away from the world....
On a voyage, undisturbed....
On my way I heard a roar....
"Wait, don't proceed ,
unless you have heard  my elucidation ,
on why should you change your course,
remember you are my angel ,my creation ...
your contribution on my stage   .....
before you take exit from my world....
take a little while....
think of the little cry....
you have no right...
to terminate  this life that has just begun  ....
let it blossom into a flower...
and to nurture this life is your role "
I took a turn ,my back towards the road ,
that led to his home ....
my lips pursed into a visible smile.....
 invisible remorse ,unhappy though ....
but being an ardent admirer of his world  I bowed .
I feel no pain nor it hurts...
Like a sloe I learnt to grow in to a fruit on a thorny shrub....
and wait for this life to take its own course and time...
when I shall lie engulfed in bright light...
until then neither I will complain nor peek into his home ,
 I vowed !

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sound in the dark

                      

                             Like an oblivious , like a naive
                                    like a kit , I hound
                                     in search of truth
                                      away from life ,
                             on a road that led nowhere .
                                The darkness all around
                                    I lay by the fire that
                                I lit on  the barren ground
                              and gazed through the dark
                         when came a sound from nowhere
                               startled  , but I didn't care
                              I looked towards the sound
                              and heard what it had to say .
                          I came out of the dark that surrounded
                                my heart,my mind , my soul
                                   it purified my thoughts.
                                            It said
                      "Don't waste your today,while You are You
                         tomorrow You may be no more You
                          make the most of what you have today ,
                                  so blow off the light
                                       that you lit
                         in  search of the truth , in search of wisdom
                           on the path that led you no where
                              you need no light , in the dark
                                  you are close to me
                                     search for me
                                    WITHIN YOU
                                    within your heart
                                    within your soul
                              you don't need to look for me
                                 the wisdom will come
                            when you feel me within thee ,
                       and believe I am with you through out
                                        the ordeal
                           you are my child , so feel strong
                                          and
                                        face life
                             before you descend into dust
                                 and change into clay
                                 to form a new life "
                               

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my friend

                    These lines are inspired by the communication I had with
                     someone who was  curious to know about my struggle in
                     life.. here is the answer I gave him though in few words.....      
                                     
                             I smiled at him when he asked me , my name !
                           I looked away when he asked me "why am in pain "
                                  How could I say cant liquefy my pain !
                                   If I gave away the secret ,my friend
                                If I shared my pain with you ,my friend
                        From where will I gain the strength to fight my friend !
                                All I can say is I accumulate my pain
                               My pain becomes a source of energy
                                        it gives me all the strength !
                            Difficult but you must learn to control your emotions
                              don't give away , don't share your pain
                                 that's your secret energy, my friend  !
                           That's my strange way to thrive in this world !
                       The world that may pretend that's your best friend !
                                         If  u shared your pain,
                   they may hear but the next moment they may not be there !
                                   Its a strange world it doesn't care ,
                                   but I don't blame it on the world !
                                        The game has changed ,
                         this place has become a race so no offence !
                       Rise and fall are a part of life ,so don't care at all !
                                                Look up ,
                   don't thrive on past it will pull you back and you will fall !
                                   The drive to fight comes from within you ,
                              so don't wait for some one to hold your hand !
                                Each one of us is made different
                                                    and
                                        has different beliefs !
                               If you want success follow my foot steps
                             Share your joy is the best way to success ,
                      hide the bleak side don't open up until you succeed ,
                                        once you have made it
                                      spread the word around
                                 the secret of your success , my friend !

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Mesmerized...

                                                 

Who are you ?
 I stand mesmerized...
Cant  erase your thoughts you are on my mind !
Like a shadow ,in  my dreams.......
You follow,cant escape,cant evade.....
Not even for a while !
Your eyes ,that smile, that feel ,
Mesmerized I stand , in awe ,
I wait for you to hold me tight !
Did I hear " you have come from paradise"
Can I ask ?
Where were you all this while ?
My thoughts,my soul ,cant break free from your control ....
Now
Don't ask" Can you wait for a while "
You set a spark , that has now turned me wild !
Mesmerised I stand ,
Wait for you to hold my hand ,
Make me believe ,if you can ,
You are not a dream ,
Your eyes ,
You and the aura around you
My sighs are all true ,
And
You have come from a different world ,from The Paradise !
You have come to take me to your world
Right now , right away , this night
In your thoughts, I stand mesmerised and turned so wild !

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faith

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                                                 I flutter !
                                 My wings  torn in this struggle !
                                        Still  I face with grace !
                                     Wont retrieve from where I stand ,
                                       nor retrieve from my place !
                                           Am here till I attain
                                                    and
                                 obtain what I deserve to gain !
                                       You have been unfair !
                                Amazingly you love to play crafty games ,
                                       but  somewhere you did fail ,
                           when you thought you would be victorious
                                                    and
                                            could be triumph
                                             could celebrate ,
                                        when I fall  and when I fail  !
                          Am your creation , like you am too obdurate ,
                                   will make you wait for the day ,
                                     when you can celebrate !
                                 Will surprise you with my flutter !
                                  Will make sure  that you do fail ,
                                                    and
                                refrain from troubling your neonate !
                                    My wings torn in this struggle ,
                               still you haven't been able to erase ,
                                 the smile that I adorn on my face !
                                   My flutter in this endeavour ,
                                is due to bring some nice color ,
                                that's away from your envision
                                      nor you can anticipate !
                                Am sure to get away with my faith !
                                    Am sure to change my fate !!

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Alone....

Few lines inspired by samyyyr's (http://www.samyyyr.com/2012/03/i-stand-alone.html#links ) post  "I stand alone.. "
                               
                                  Deserted ,
                                    alone ,
                          encircled by darkness ,
                 frozen in the chill of this cold night !
                                 Too scared ,
                   to even go close to source of light ,
                     no wish to open my sunken eyes !
                          Desire to see someone ,
                        the drive to do something , 
                        the desire to be some one ,
                    the asperations , the ambitions
                         remain frozen and foiled !
                                     Alone
                    no one to abet no one to guide ,
                         my anguish my plight ,
                         who would understand
                                the mystery ,
                          dont wish to share
                                 but  hide !
                                   Drained 
                                  worn out   
                                desire to lie ,
                  the will to remain alive now died !
                                    Alone
                   like a falling droplet from  leaf ,
                 like a single leaf on a withered tree,
                                    I lie
               frozen in darkness and chill of this night !

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Mercy

                              
                               

 Your enigma ,am puzzled !

                                                     Your conundrum is a riddle !
                                                          Love the way you diddle ,
                                                            heartless , yet a saint !
                                                        You have your own ways ,
                                                        Allah , is that your name ?
                                                                 Source of life ,
                                                                   The creator ,
                                                             that's what they say !
                                              Invisible
                                                  a
                                               riddle ,
                                        curious , I fiddle ,
                                          for no reason
                              my curiosity you don't dwindle !
                                      Nomad is my name,
                                      am a reckless wave ,
                                 in your world that's strange ,
                            the world that now is estranged ,
                                                but
                             you move away with a shudder ,
                                ignorant , as if you are naive ,
                        you care not for this floundering wave ,
                                your fury on this wanderer ,
                                is harsher than that of a gale ,
                                         slow down
                                                 I
                                     told you my name ,
                                hold on ,at all if you care ,
                                   no mercy I anticipate
                                              but
                                few words on my fate !

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A lonely bird

                                                  

I understand your reluctance to disclose the mystery that I am trying to unfold... if I promise that I will not ask for more than what lies in store , will that be fine !

Your advice " live for the day " I heard....  I am a tenacious child ,you know  I am gonna probe till  I find the answer to my question ,you may not like !

You are divine , you think you can hush me coz you own this world ....that's your mistake..I am gonna twitter like a parakeet till answer I have found !

  Am a lonely bird in this world...I know no one , but you and have no reason to lie...need your  help to curb my life ,the only reason I have been probing you for a while !

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tree of life

                     

                             

                     Few miles away from your world ,
                     can see some bright stars in the sky;
                          like a vine, feeble in the air
                          I held on to a tree of life ,
                          An embrace of fresh air
                   made my thoughts crystal clear
                             and am not lying ,
                   like a bird am ready to fly in the air ,
                            the feeling is so divine !
                     The  sound of distant drums I hear
                     getting  louder, that makes me smile ,
                               I crossed the horizon
                           that divides two worlds ,
                       one is yours and one is mine !
                                        Though
                                deep down I fear
                  you may not forget that request of mine ,
                 just one brief sleep in your arms I seek,
                               that too for a while !
                   The pain I may forget when I am there
                              away from lust of life
                         with you , in an eternal nest
              in thy world  I wish to be with you for some time !
                 Hope you know I am ready to fly to your world
                                  and am not lying ,
                         its time for you to smile at me
                           don't let me down this time !
                                  Please ensure
                   this time  my stay is longer than last time ,
                my heart and soul are overwhelmed and excited
                       the energy seems to have grown twice ,
                         after having seen the divine light !
              
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my awesome blogger award

awesome blogger award

First of thank you Kajal of   http://purplechronicle.blogspot.in/   .for considering me worthy of this award...a biiiiiiiig thank you to you....i love reading your posts:) 

As per the rules I am supposed to 

• Link back and thank the person whom I got the award from.
• Share 7 things about me.
• Pass the award to 15 newly discovered great bloggers.
• Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.

7thing about me are

• I drink 20cups of tea a day
• I love love love animals
• I hate my daughters addiction to her blackberry
• I like to put off things until the last minute
• I love plants and gardening
• I am not a foodie
• I am addicted to blogging

i would like to pass on the award to all the blogs i am following but due to the rules i cant do so,so am passing it on to the blogs i have recently discovered started following and thouroghly enjoy:)kajal i wish i could add you to the list as well but am not sure if thats allowed:)

• abhishek ratna-The Donkey MBA
• The Butterfly Effect
• relax please-http://relaxplease2005.blogspot.in/
• saikat -http://campbuzzz.blogspot.in/
• rahul aggarwal-http://rahul-aggarwal.blogspot.in/
• shamsud-http://iamdirtyineedwashing.blogspot.in/
• amit-http://amitaag.blogspot.in/
• mak-JÖurnëy - Nëvër Ënds
• Sabarjeet - Cynosure is Mused 
• Gayatri - Life Unordinary 
• rahul miglani-http://xs2rahulz.blogspot.in/
• bhargav-http://soul-n-heart.blogspot.in/
• Saru Singhal - Words
• Indu - Jeete Raho
• bikramjit-http://mannbikram.wordpress.com/

that was tough:)happy blogging

A call !

                                                   

My life you surprised me enough , now tell me what lies beyond the sky .....tell me how beautiful is the world of thy,the mystery of your world,the mysteries of unknown !

I heard a ribbon like road leads to the beautiful world of mystery and lights , tell me if I am wrong , show me if theres another road that leads to thy world , I don't want to go wrong and be there on time !

The mystery of unknown , the mystery of your world I think of most of the time,you tell me now I am waiting for your call..... I have no clothes no valise to carry forward so I wont take much time !

I am getting fervent now, lost my patience want to be home..in thy world that one day I know would be mine for some time till  you decide to be unkind for some more time and give me another life ...but few days of congregation with you in your world will help me go on  next  life !

         ..please dont take too long to decide to free me from this world and  the pain of  this life  I am waiting for your call , dont delay no more time !
             


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