versatile the 4th time:)

I wanna thank fellow blogger and friend Shamsud for this lovely surprise:)I love his posts and they can be read here http://iamdirtyineedwashing.blogspot.in 

                                                     

Time for fulfilling the ritual:

1.     Thank the person who nominated you.
2.     Post a picture of the award on your blog.
3.     Share 7 random thoughts about yourself.
4.     Choose bloggers to pass the award to.
5.     Inform them about it.

7random things

I have a passion for strong cars.

I love swimming 

Am a big time animal lover

Am an extremely emotional person

I am an introvert so rarely make friends

I enjoy meaningful and sentimental music

and I only enjoy horror and hard core action movies:)

Bloggers am passing this award to our the blogs I have recently discovered and started following..am sorry if I missed out on someone will surely make it up to u next time:)

N- Unfold the Folded

emi fo  ! *Beauty is an opinion へようこそ* !

ashish singh  Ashish Says.......

mak JÖurnëy - Nëvër Ënds

sujay sam Confessions for An Agoraphobic

ICY HIGHS

idea molester Prisoner of my own Device...

pallav gogoi  Dejavu

denny  Poetry

animesh shah "yuva indian writer''

dr.sneha A Colloquy Of BitterSweet Love

simon willis Follow Willis!

jen Ripples of Koi

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musketeer

                       

                       Like a raft without an oar,
                       like a kite without a string,
                            I move I swing ,
               though you chopped all my wings ;
                         now when you say
                       that you cant believe ,
                 without an oar without my wings ,
                  without a string how do I swing ;
                            you must know
              I am a knight rider , I need no strings
                am a musketeer , I need no wings ;
                       will prove you wrong
                 that you chopped my wings ,
            will prove your thoughts are your whims ;
            when I cross the bulwark and shall walk ,
                              like a cougar
                and force you to go in deep thoughts ,
                    was  it worth giving me the pain ,
            was it worth hurting me and leaving me slain ;
              you thought you could intimidate this heart ,
                  you only gave me a reason to laugh ,
                           and made me strong ;
                            you never thought
                         like a bull on rampage
                     I shall walk and get what I want ,
                    while you think about your whims
                              and your vows
                that you wont let me reach the shore,
              let me bear sweet agony some sweet pain ,
               that makes me strong and makes me laugh ,
              for a while go back again in deep thoughts
                                      and
                    think of a way  to save your face !

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good bye

 

 Never could I believe .......
 I can live without you ....
without you love ,
Wonderful are my days......
 Magnificent is the sky.......
So are,The Ocean and Waves....
No fear in my mind ,of being carried away....
Beautiful seems my life.......
Satiated I feel inside,
 Feel full of life......
 With no one by my side.......
No one to play games
No one to tell me whats right......
No one to guide........
No one to navigate.......
No one I wait for......
Freedom from chaos,
that was created in my life.....
Didn't know life could be so wonderful without you,
 I took time to realise though ,
am glad I am not too late.......
Now away from sweet nectar that is fake ,
that I thought was life ,
that burnt me inside....
Life seemed aimless in your wait.....
My conversation with the sky made me realise.......
You are a sham ,you are a lie....
You can rip apart my heart.....
You can turn me insane......
Love , you are out now ,
out of my life ,
far away that you cant try.....
try to encroach my heart......
make a place for you to reside.......
I ride another wave now......
towards wisdom.....
towards truth.......
towards light....
that I see towards the end....
I am not too far from , I am told.....
And I need nothing , nor I crave,
crave for being loved has now died.
I left you behind , to look for another slave....
Good bye love , now I am no more insane !

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my con

on my stage

these lines have a deep connection with me 

read between the lines correctly is more important than reading the words

 On my way...
On the road  to his world......
Like a sage... Silent , unheard....
Away from the world....
On a voyage, undisturbed....
On my way I heard a roar....
"Wait, don't proceed ,
unless you have heard  my elucidation ,
on why should you change your course,
remember you are my angel ,my creation ...
your contribution on my stage   .....
before you take exit from my world....
take a little while....
think of the little cry....
you have no right...
to terminate  this life that has just begun  ....
let it blossom into a flower...
and to nurture this life is your role "
I took a turn ,my back towards the road ,
that led to his home ....
my lips pursed into a visible smile.....
 invisible remorse ,unhappy though ....
but being an ardent admirer of his world  I bowed .
I feel no pain nor it hurts...
Like a sloe I learnt to grow in to a fruit on a thorny shrub....
and wait for this life to take its own course and time...
when I shall lie engulfed in bright light...
until then neither I will complain nor peek into his home ,
 I vowed !

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sound in the dark

                      

                             Like an oblivious , like a naive
                                    like a kit , I hound
                                     in search of truth
                                      away from life ,
                             on a road that led nowhere .
                                The darkness all around
                                    I lay by the fire that
                                I lit on  the barren ground
                              and gazed through the dark
                         when came a sound from nowhere
                               startled  , but I didn't care
                              I looked towards the sound
                              and heard what it had to say .
                          I came out of the dark that surrounded
                                my heart,my mind , my soul
                                   it purified my thoughts.
                                            It said
                      "Don't waste your today,while You are You
                         tomorrow You may be no more You
                          make the most of what you have today ,
                                  so blow off the light
                                       that you lit
                         in  search of the truth , in search of wisdom
                           on the path that led you no where
                              you need no light , in the dark
                                  you are close to me
                                     search for me
                                    WITHIN YOU
                                    within your heart
                                    within your soul
                              you don't need to look for me
                                 the wisdom will come
                            when you feel me within thee ,
                       and believe I am with you through out
                                        the ordeal
                           you are my child , so feel strong
                                          and
                                        face life
                             before you descend into dust
                                 and change into clay
                                 to form a new life "
                               

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my friend

                    These lines are inspired by the communication I had with
                     someone who was  curious to know about my struggle in
                     life.. here is the answer I gave him though in few words.....      
                                     
                             I smiled at him when he asked me , my name !
                           I looked away when he asked me "why am in pain "
                                  How could I say cant liquefy my pain !
                                   If I gave away the secret ,my friend
                                If I shared my pain with you ,my friend
                        From where will I gain the strength to fight my friend !
                                All I can say is I accumulate my pain
                               My pain becomes a source of energy
                                        it gives me all the strength !
                            Difficult but you must learn to control your emotions
                              don't give away , don't share your pain
                                 that's your secret energy, my friend  !
                           That's my strange way to thrive in this world !
                       The world that may pretend that's your best friend !
                                         If  u shared your pain,
                   they may hear but the next moment they may not be there !
                                   Its a strange world it doesn't care ,
                                   but I don't blame it on the world !
                                        The game has changed ,
                         this place has become a race so no offence !
                       Rise and fall are a part of life ,so don't care at all !
                                                Look up ,
                   don't thrive on past it will pull you back and you will fall !
                                   The drive to fight comes from within you ,
                              so don't wait for some one to hold your hand !
                                Each one of us is made different
                                                    and
                                        has different beliefs !
                               If you want success follow my foot steps
                             Share your joy is the best way to success ,
                      hide the bleak side don't open up until you succeed ,
                                        once you have made it
                                      spread the word around
                                 the secret of your success , my friend !

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Mesmerized...

                                                 

Who are you ?
 I stand mesmerized...
Cant  erase your thoughts you are on my mind !
Like a shadow ,in  my dreams.......
You follow,cant escape,cant evade.....
Not even for a while !
Your eyes ,that smile, that feel ,
Mesmerized I stand , in awe ,
I wait for you to hold me tight !
Did I hear " you have come from paradise"
Can I ask ?
Where were you all this while ?
My thoughts,my soul ,cant break free from your control ....
Now
Don't ask" Can you wait for a while "
You set a spark , that has now turned me wild !
Mesmerised I stand ,
Wait for you to hold my hand ,
Make me believe ,if you can ,
You are not a dream ,
Your eyes ,
You and the aura around you
My sighs are all true ,
And
You have come from a different world ,from The Paradise !
You have come to take me to your world
Right now , right away , this night
In your thoughts, I stand mesmerised and turned so wild !

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faith

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                                                 I flutter !
                                 My wings  torn in this struggle !
                                        Still  I face with grace !
                                     Wont retrieve from where I stand ,
                                       nor retrieve from my place !
                                           Am here till I attain
                                                    and
                                 obtain what I deserve to gain !
                                       You have been unfair !
                                Amazingly you love to play crafty games ,
                                       but  somewhere you did fail ,
                           when you thought you would be victorious
                                                    and
                                            could be triumph
                                             could celebrate ,
                                        when I fall  and when I fail  !
                          Am your creation , like you am too obdurate ,
                                   will make you wait for the day ,
                                     when you can celebrate !
                                 Will surprise you with my flutter !
                                  Will make sure  that you do fail ,
                                                    and
                                refrain from troubling your neonate !
                                    My wings torn in this struggle ,
                               still you haven't been able to erase ,
                                 the smile that I adorn on my face !
                                   My flutter in this endeavour ,
                                is due to bring some nice color ,
                                that's away from your envision
                                      nor you can anticipate !
                                Am sure to get away with my faith !
                                    Am sure to change my fate !!

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Alone....

Few lines inspired by samyyyr's (http://www.samyyyr.com/2012/03/i-stand-alone.html#links ) post  "I stand alone.. "
                               
                                  Deserted ,
                                    alone ,
                          encircled by darkness ,
                 frozen in the chill of this cold night !
                                 Too scared ,
                   to even go close to source of light ,
                     no wish to open my sunken eyes !
                          Desire to see someone ,
                        the drive to do something , 
                        the desire to be some one ,
                    the asperations , the ambitions
                         remain frozen and foiled !
                                     Alone
                    no one to abet no one to guide ,
                         my anguish my plight ,
                         who would understand
                                the mystery ,
                          dont wish to share
                                 but  hide !
                                   Drained 
                                  worn out   
                                desire to lie ,
                  the will to remain alive now died !
                                    Alone
                   like a falling droplet from  leaf ,
                 like a single leaf on a withered tree,
                                    I lie
               frozen in darkness and chill of this night !

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Mercy

                              
                               

 Your enigma ,am puzzled !

                                                     Your conundrum is a riddle !
                                                          Love the way you diddle ,
                                                            heartless , yet a saint !
                                                        You have your own ways ,
                                                        Allah , is that your name ?
                                                                 Source of life ,
                                                                   The creator ,
                                                             that's what they say !
                                              Invisible
                                                  a
                                               riddle ,
                                        curious , I fiddle ,
                                          for no reason
                              my curiosity you don't dwindle !
                                      Nomad is my name,
                                      am a reckless wave ,
                                 in your world that's strange ,
                            the world that now is estranged ,
                                                but
                             you move away with a shudder ,
                                ignorant , as if you are naive ,
                        you care not for this floundering wave ,
                                your fury on this wanderer ,
                                is harsher than that of a gale ,
                                         slow down
                                                 I
                                     told you my name ,
                                hold on ,at all if you care ,
                                   no mercy I anticipate
                                              but
                                few words on my fate !

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A lonely bird

                                                  

I understand your reluctance to disclose the mystery that I am trying to unfold... if I promise that I will not ask for more than what lies in store , will that be fine !

Your advice " live for the day " I heard....  I am a tenacious child ,you know  I am gonna probe till  I find the answer to my question ,you may not like !

You are divine , you think you can hush me coz you own this world ....that's your mistake..I am gonna twitter like a parakeet till answer I have found !

  Am a lonely bird in this world...I know no one , but you and have no reason to lie...need your  help to curb my life ,the only reason I have been probing you for a while !

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tree of life

                     

                             

                     Few miles away from your world ,
                     can see some bright stars in the sky;
                          like a vine, feeble in the air
                          I held on to a tree of life ,
                          An embrace of fresh air
                   made my thoughts crystal clear
                             and am not lying ,
                   like a bird am ready to fly in the air ,
                            the feeling is so divine !
                     The  sound of distant drums I hear
                     getting  louder, that makes me smile ,
                               I crossed the horizon
                           that divides two worlds ,
                       one is yours and one is mine !
                                        Though
                                deep down I fear
                  you may not forget that request of mine ,
                 just one brief sleep in your arms I seek,
                               that too for a while !
                   The pain I may forget when I am there
                              away from lust of life
                         with you , in an eternal nest
              in thy world  I wish to be with you for some time !
                 Hope you know I am ready to fly to your world
                                  and am not lying ,
                         its time for you to smile at me
                           don't let me down this time !
                                  Please ensure
                   this time  my stay is longer than last time ,
                my heart and soul are overwhelmed and excited
                       the energy seems to have grown twice ,
                         after having seen the divine light !
              
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my awesome blogger award

awesome blogger award

First of thank you Kajal of   http://purplechronicle.blogspot.in/   .for considering me worthy of this award...a biiiiiiiig thank you to you....i love reading your posts:) 

As per the rules I am supposed to 

• Link back and thank the person whom I got the award from.
• Share 7 things about me.
• Pass the award to 15 newly discovered great bloggers.
• Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.

7thing about me are

• I drink 20cups of tea a day
• I love love love animals
• I hate my daughters addiction to her blackberry
• I like to put off things until the last minute
• I love plants and gardening
• I am not a foodie
• I am addicted to blogging

i would like to pass on the award to all the blogs i am following but due to the rules i cant do so,so am passing it on to the blogs i have recently discovered started following and thouroghly enjoy:)kajal i wish i could add you to the list as well but am not sure if thats allowed:)

• abhishek ratna-The Donkey MBA
• The Butterfly Effect
• relax please-http://relaxplease2005.blogspot.in/
• saikat -http://campbuzzz.blogspot.in/
• rahul aggarwal-http://rahul-aggarwal.blogspot.in/
• shamsud-http://iamdirtyineedwashing.blogspot.in/
• amit-http://amitaag.blogspot.in/
• mak-JÖurnëy - Nëvër Ënds
• Sabarjeet - Cynosure is Mused 
• Gayatri - Life Unordinary 
• rahul miglani-http://xs2rahulz.blogspot.in/
• bhargav-http://soul-n-heart.blogspot.in/
• Saru Singhal - Words
• Indu - Jeete Raho
• bikramjit-http://mannbikram.wordpress.com/

that was tough:)happy blogging

A call !

                                                   

My life you surprised me enough , now tell me what lies beyond the sky .....tell me how beautiful is the world of thy,the mystery of your world,the mysteries of unknown !

I heard a ribbon like road leads to the beautiful world of mystery and lights , tell me if I am wrong , show me if theres another road that leads to thy world , I don't want to go wrong and be there on time !

The mystery of unknown , the mystery of your world I think of most of the time,you tell me now I am waiting for your call..... I have no clothes no valise to carry forward so I wont take much time !

I am getting fervent now, lost my patience want to be home..in thy world that one day I know would be mine for some time till  you decide to be unkind for some more time and give me another life ...but few days of congregation with you in your world will help me go on  next  life !

         ..please dont take too long to decide to free me from this world and  the pain of  this life  I am waiting for your call , dont delay no more time !
             


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ringing bells of shrine

I asked the beautiful star shining in the sky " can you share the secret, the mysterious ways of Divine"? ......It smiled at me and said " its not you alone ,  I have been asked this question umpteen time but my lips are tied "

I asked the blue ocean the secret of Divine , it roared and said " I thought , would share with you the secret  but I stand by my promise that I cant break my child "

I asked the wind if it could share the mysteries of Divine , it blew away as if  was scared to share the secret that I was trying to find ! 

I rolled down like a stone and reached the foot hills when I heard  the sound , of ringing bells from a distant shrine that said "Brace me , hold me tight .... look for me in your heart you will find , that's where I reside....its a long journey ....don't want to break you on your way my child ... I suggest , live for the day is my only advice "

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A boulevard to The Holy Kingdom

  

                                               

                          Anonymous
               No name No caste No creed
                  Ecstasy,Felicity ,Mirth
                         Joy is all I feel ,
               thaught would let you all know
                       if at all you care !
                 
                 Strides on a boulevard ,
              towards the light that's real,
           gear towards The Holy Kingdom ,
                     I move faster,
                     believe me its real !
                  Hallucination or an illusion ,
                          do Icare?
                  Abandoned my fears !
                    Pain that was dear ,
          sorrow that followed every where ,
               empowered by yearnings ,
               such was life my dear !
                    The Holy Bible
                       The Gita
                     The Quran
                         are
        different mediums to reach here !
     On a boulevard to The Holy Kingdom ,
            the color is immaterial ,
           no significance of race ,
                 no materials ,
                   no status ,
                  no identity ,
        freedom from pseudo life ,
        on my way towards the light ,
           I learnt my dear !

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A beautiful girl

                                                          

I saw a beautiful girl...riding on a wave , in the sea.....she moved her rump , I saw she had no feet..... she moved like a bonito in the sea....

She flipped and turned .....she look at me, as if trying to say something .... she seemed real and familiar with me.....

She had a beautiful pearl dangling in her hair....that she played with while she smiled at me.......

 A mile away from the reefs , where I lay ...she twist and turn with the wave she was riding in the sea .....she seemed some one from the marine.....

She disappeared with the sound of cloud burst....in disbelief I looked at the sky while it showered some pearls on me.....

Next moment I heard the beautiful girl ...she whispered some thing in my ear.....she said"look for the pearl ,I left it for you to make your wish come true , I am a fairy from the sea"

I looked for the pearl that was lost among the pearls lying all around me ...that showered few moments before she whispered in my ear ......I wish i could find the pearl , I often see ......but  it seems like a deja vu... few times it has happened to me !

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words will say it all

      

My words I say , are a reflection of my life and the state of my heart ...my emotions so strong ,you cant weigh them until you feel my breath that comes deep down from my heart......

Sometimes I am in deep pain ,at times I question like a naive .....my convo with the mirror came to an end when I began to write my musings on the wall....

 I may not be there but my words will remain buried deep down in your heart....some day when I am not alive..you might think of the past....and rhyme my words that come straight from my heart.....

Such is the power of words ! I came and will live my life the way it has been described by the stars.....I will  leave nothing behind nor carry any thing forward...... but the words will and stay alive till you decide, its not worthwhile  remembering me when I am gone .

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yesterday

My life you know my loneliness......I don't think of tomorrow, nor I want to talk about yesterday...but today I don't  want to feel oppressed.....

My life , my heart beats and feels the same like yesterday....if you can hear my heart  , I am  sure , you can make me feel great once again.....I have been waiting for you ..... tomorrow who knows ,you may not be there....but , today I want you to make my day ....

I know and I understand , you too are constrained but for one day you sure can redress and be my subsistence....

My life I cant stop myself from telling you that , I met him yesterday.....it was like a dream come true without a prudence... though I know every day is not the same but I will be grateful if you could  make my day as pleasurable as yesterday !

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Autumn and The Spring

                   
  

            On my knees , I am your patron ,      
                          an admirer ,
                 hold you in high regard !
             your blessings are my strength !
                 I abide by all your rules !
     To move according to your signal is my duty !
                  have no wish of mine !
                      Will live and die
               the way you want  me to !
       you have all my strings in your hand !
                 You own me ,I am yours !
        Which ever path you show is mine !
                      I promise to bear
            all the pain you confer on me ,
                         with a smile !
              Half way through my journey ,
             I have a question on my mind ,
     hope you wouldn't mind answering with a smile !
                  You are a perfectionist ,
                      Sun and The Moon ,
                      Ocean and The Sea ,
                    Autumn and The Spring ,
                  every creation of yours
             is a paragon of your perfection ,
               but where did you go wrong
                    when you created life  ?
                          every soul ,
                        every animal ,
                     every human being  ,
                     though beautiful
            suffers in one or the other form ,
                you are the master crafter ,
              you are the one and only one ,
  who is the master of this theatre and this theme ,
                              but
               why don't you recede pain ,
        and fill up the empty space with joy ,
                      that one seeks !
                                I
           truly don't want anything for me ,
                              but
              save me from sufferings
       sufferings of others ,watching them
                    my heart bleeds !                             

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anything for you....

like a ray , like a rising sun...     .come in to my life, when i open my eye...like a whiff of breeze , like  morning dew.....feel my heart gentle and soft ,sing a song for me my love, surprise me enough before i open my eyes....make my life a refrain that i wouldn't want to give up....

my desire to run , my desire  to fly........make my dream come true ...my desire to fly like a dove ,glide in the sky..when the morning comes wait for night....make my nights , longing for life...hold my hand be my oar....be my strength when i am low...be like an ocean that embraces the sea.....make my life worthwhile...that i wouldn't want to live without you...... 

 every  morning when i wake up ,when  i open my eyes ..... to see yo smile ,is the only desire.....admire me for who i am , ignore my fragility......and apprise my strengths  ....make my life worthwhile....don't quibble , be my adherent... is all i want from you and i can do any thing for you !

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an awekening call....

                                             
                       This piece of poetry is inspired by few lines from Bhagavad Gita

                                            
                                              My reasons my fears ,
                                   my thoughts that pierced my heart
                          were answered when I got an awakening call,
                                               I realised I was wrong
                                     all my worries are without cause .
                            unwarranted my fears , unfounded they are all !
                                      When my present is happening ,
                                          why should I regret my past ,
                                                           and
                                              worry about my future ?
                                                    What did i lose ?
                         What ever I have received  was received here ,
                                                  had nothing at all !
                              What ever I have given ,  was never mine !
                                 I produced nothing that got destroyed !
                                                       My worry
                                                          about
                                  who is gonna light my pyre ,is an inane thought ,
                                             do i care who is gonna cry
                                    My fright about death , a vapid thought !
                                  I am gonna die but my soul will remain alive !
                                      a phenomenon ,a metempsychosis
                                                   I can not deny !
                                My first cry of life,  had no apparel to hide !
                        My exit from life ,will be with empty hands as I arrived !
                              An awakening call , felt like sharing my thoughts !
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Saturday NIGHT (lyrics)

I blurred ..    ...I was  high..........the music was perfect last night ,when he caught my eye.............a perfect moment to rock when,the music was just right ..... the night of mania ,the Saturday night...hmmmm the Saturday night.....

He blinked , he twitched  ...... ......  ... he tried to speak through his eyes....he moved his springy body like a bird who could fly,"c'mon move with me"I heard him whisper and he held me tight ,on Saturday night ......hmmm Saturday night......

  he blew a whistle that changed my attire....I.couldn't move,nor I could  smile...I gaped, I squeezed my eyes, while he looked at me with a great desire and said ,"you look beautiful tonight" ... the music mania that night  ....on Saturday night !

I moved ....... I heard a flute ,the time moved faster than desired........... when I sink .....I think of that blink , ...when I move I think of the flute......... that changed my life and when I look at my new attire ............ I desire to bring back that beautiful night....the Saturday night !!

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