My Beloved (A guest post )

I take pleasure to introduce Akshit Dawar (www.akshitdawar.blogspot.com) . He has a significant style of expressing emotions and I am sure you will agree with me after going through this piece of poetry.

Fuchsia O fuchsia

There is a dream in my heart

You are its vision

There is a love to impart

From my hearts heavenly Elysian

There is love, there is warmth

In every blink of my beat

There are tears aswarmed

Before they sprout let us meet

I kiss the wave gliding to your heart

Allow your heart to feel it once

Let the barriers fall apart

Steal the moment and romance in cadence

Petals of life need your care

A lifelong shower of trust and lust

Fuse in me like a cream in éclair

You come to me before I rust

Fuchsia O fuchsia

A life is in love

There is a shadow, rest is love

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Book Release Coverage in PBD

Finally my poetry book " Deep In My Heart " was released on 30th Mar 2013 the date to reckon with !
RSMP Mr Mani Shankar Aiyar was kind enough to spare some time to unveil the book despite the fact  his grand daughter's Birth day coincided with the date of launch . And so was film maker and author of Ameer Baniye, Mr Uunnat Duutt who made the evening special with his presence. And here is the coverage on the Book release in Political &Business daily dt 31st Mar 2013 ....

An evening of honours , moments to reckon with , undoubtedly a day to remember an event that rocked Hotel Ashok , N Dehi but I was nervous until I saw  Mr Mani Shankar being escorted inside the venue. Though despite the fact he had a birth day party  in his own house yet  he had promised to spare time for the lauch. But I had all sorts of thoughts that clouded my mind , and those were " what if he forgets " or "what if some family member stops him from going out " etc etc . and to top it up he was late by almost 9mns on the day when each minute of two hour event was planned and re planned to suite his convenience . Suddenly I heard whispers followed by camera clicks , a sigh of relief , there he was wearing  a different look from what he  usually wears . Every thing went off well except I pictured very badly but I don't mind sharing them with you  , after all those are very special moments of my life and will stay close to my heart  !

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Here is the design for invitation card for my book launch scheduled on 30th March 2013....Entry by invitation card only

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Sunrise

We tend to forget our past and move on but it remains embedded deep in our subconscious mind though we may not want to think or talk about it but it does make an attempt to come back .Sunrise is about my conversation with my past , that I left  behind .....




Oh , my past never come close to my lips 
Lie where I left you  abandoned
Don't you peek through my eyes 
Speak to me at night 
When I am isolated from the world
Away from everyone, when none can hear your plight
But not when the sunrises
Now don't start again and make me cry
Some sadness is a part of everyone's life
Some sunshine is a part of everyone's life
I want no clouds of pain and sadness loom
Nor I want tears to come close to my eyes 
Now don't scare this lonely heart 
That has learnt to embrace eagerness it keeps me alive
My eyes are filled with dreams, my desires kept alive
I flow like free wind , like a free river
Embrace every moment with open arms
See a new horizon every time I open my eyes
And changed my name to fragrance that floats  in the air 
and has no voice...
About which you know and I know too
Then why your eyes are wet ,why do you cry
Why don't you speak to my heart ,seek some advice
It comes in my dreams every time when you speak to me at night
Gives me a piece of its mind
I thought of sharing it with you tonight
Make you hear my heart , its advice 
 "Every second is a new season,
Why do you let go of such priceless moments for no reason 
Thinking of evil ( here: past )
Embrace the deep silence with pride
Its a part of everyone's fate
Don't let the evil thoughts come close to you
Nor your eyes "
Is all it  sayS and disappears in the darkness of night
Now leave me alone its time for sunrise !




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When The Universe Aligned For Me

" When you really want something in life the entire universe will align itself to give it to you " Paulo Coelho

It feels great as one gets closer to accomplishment of ones dreams  , but that's not the case with me instead I got butterflies in my stomach and I have every reason to feel nervous. And I am sure once you have gone through the details of  my book launch you will agree with me. Well before I share the details of the book launch of " Deep In My Heart " A Cyberwit Publication  . Here is the amazon link in , http://www.amazon.com/Deep-My-Heart-Alka-Narula/dp/8182533856/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1363022983&sr=1-1 The book will be up for sale from March 30th 2013.


 My book of poetry " Deep In my Heart " due for release on March 30th 2013 will be presented by Balkan -Ji-Bari International   ( Since 1923 , the oldest NGO in India) Some of the distinguished personalities who have been at the helm of affairs , are Dr Rajinder Prasad , Dr Sarvapalli Radhakrishnan, Dr Zaakir Hussain , Mr Fakhrudin Ali Ahmed ,Mr Gulzari Lal Nanda , Mr Morarji Desai and Dr Radha Raman , and what an honor it is to have a preface written by RSMP Mr Mani Shankar Aiyar who also also agreed to unveil the book . I have no words to express my gratitude towards him.

I would  like to thank my daughter for encouraging me to share my poetry with the world , I would also like to thank Dutt Productions https://www.facebook.com/TerePyaarMeinPaapad  for art work of the book . And my special thanks to Balkan -Ji-Bari International http://nonprofits.halabol.com/Balkan-Ji-Bari-international  and Mr.Mani Shankar Aiyar.





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What Lies In A Name

What lies in a name is about a woman pleading her love to stay in her life , no matter if he gives her his name or not , no matter if he can express his love for her or not, she only craves that he should stay in her life till death do them part....hope you would enjoy it , Pl read on and if possible share the experience of your visit

Like clouds of rain my eyes shall pour 

If you go

If you try to erase your name from my life

My only hope

Who shall I blame for the pain in my eyes

That would embrace

Life too will claim it was right

I have notorious ways

My failure would remind me of stains on my heart

How will I cope

You need not give me your name nor announce

Don't  you know

Just a corner in your heart an isolated place 

Where I  can stay alone

What lies in a name I can stay without

Names can be changed

Douse me in flames of your love 

I wont complain

Be there in my life till death do us part

Is the only thing for I crave

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The end

Few lines inspired by Bhagwad Gita about the ultimate truth of life , please read on 

My journey on a road

That I know will end 
Though I may not hear the knock

Do I fear my end

Do I care whether I will erode with dust

Or will be rendered to flames

Do I fear the tears that would roll

Or do I care who would laugh

Do I care whether I will go

Before I accomplish my tasks

My delusions about the Self

Came to an end

When I heard him roar

When he said

'Why do you worship when you know

You have no control

You have to live with pre determined destiny that I wrote

Before you took your first breath

So is your last breath in my control

Take my advice don't try to hold on your guise

That is composed of  five elements ,

And the elements are bound to erode

They don't last

The very Self is the supreme Truth.
There is neither injury nor non injury in It.

The only homogeneous Reality is your spirit
It is  pure, bodiless and is imperishable
Your spirit is the only priceless gift that is yours
That I allow in my regime !"

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" Deep In My Heart " the book cover

Here's the final cover of my book " Deep In My Heart " ,which is due for release on March 29 ' 2013
here in Delhi at IIC in the presence of some top dignitaries . Though some editing is required in the text , but I just couldn't stop from sharing ,please feel free to give your inputs. I would also like to thank  team Dutt Productions https://www.facebook.com/TerePyaarMeinPaapad  for their support and  art work for the cover.





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"Deep In My Heart " Book of Poetry

Well , I am all set for my book of poetry " Deep In My Heart " due for release on Mar 29'2013. Here's my pic for the back cover , thought of sharing with you all ....photo credits
https://www.facebook.com/TerePyaarMeinPaapad Team !

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Daffodils

A sensual piece of poetry depicting the beauty of a man and woman relationship....Filled with joy and ecstasy I was with thee,,,when I saw you bathe me with daffodils   !


They say there's always a lull before storm
I went through a similar feeling
When you were trying to put me to sleep
When you said
Sleep on while I talk to thee
My eyes though were full of sleep
But I was trying to hear you , how you talk to me
While I sleep
I felt nice when you draped my body
With your silky feel
When you covered my naked body
With daffodils
Though I was shy but I let it be
I let you feel my every string
As a matter of fact
No  more my body belongs to me
Now it belongs to thee
I wished if you could merge in me
And I could merge in thee
Like a cloud we could fly away
In a world of mystery
With that thought in my mind I fell asleep
While you talked to me , whispered a lullaby in my ear
I dreamt of you ,saw you in my dream
When you put me to sleep
Filled with joy and ecstasy, I was with thee
When I saw you bathe me with daffodils   !

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Himeros

Few lines on love  and desire inspired by Gary Lenhart 

He just walked into my life

Neither he knocked

Nor he told me , he has arrived

He just tread on my heart and walked

Left his footprints on my heart

He whispered and asked
If he could kiss my red lips
That he said "Are  redder than coral in the sea "
I loved his soothing sound , yet well I knew
The music would shy away if it heard the melody in his soundw

I saw roses damasked ,red and white

But none to compare the one on my cheeks

When he asked " Would you be  mine "

The fragrance of flowers that I looked at

When he arched to kiss my lips

Mellowed down when his breath came close to mine

I grant  never before I had seen a Himeros (god of love desire )

Until he walked and tread on my heart

Until he ,touched me softly

Played with my chords

And made me realise

Though he has come in to my life without a knock

Yet to stay put till dawns to come

When he took me into his arms 

And said " I wont let go off you

As long as you don't erase my foot marks from your heart 

Being in love and loved by some one who you are in love with is rare ! 

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Thine Eyes

MY BOOK COVER DESIGN

My book " Deep In My Heart " cover design

 

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Valentine's day

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A Valentine day special - a love song

All my love songs that I write
Are in your memory
I write , when you are not there
Time after time , though I try to forget the memories of the time ,that together we shared
But it is hard to erase the memories of past
And dreams of being in your arms once again
I live for you , hope you too feel the same !

Now when you are gone
Your mysterious smile communicates with me, when I am down
Your eyes speak to me in the dark
The dreams of you keep me strong
When they say , you  will come back again !

Tomorrow the time will be same as today
And I hope the feelings too will remain the same
Today on  Valentines day , I thought I should confide 
And share what I have been hiding
All this while ,when you left , when you were gone
The first kiss that we shared was as strong as
Intoxicating grapes , The Adam in you took my heart away
Now all that I want from you is to keep my heart safe !

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Deep In My Heart

Once again , a very light piece of poetry on love..

Pink Rose like those lips,
Slight purse and they twitched,
Few moments of silence,
While I looked away,
Not to get carried away by that gaze ,
By that priceless expression;

Though I drowned , lost my way,
Couldn't escape from becoming insane ,
In the depth of fathomless husky sound ,
My heart gaped and gasped for some fresh air;

Though I tried to convince my heart " Don't panic ,
I am not getting charmed  by that astound sound ,
No matter what it has to say ;
None can touch you'
You lie tucked away , out of reach
Way too far , far away  ";

Though I left no trace on my face .
Yet got intoxicated  by that mesmerising musk ,
When he came towards me to hold me in his arms,
The fragrance of  his breath , I couldn't escape
When he lowered his face and placed his lips on my nape ;

I shivers , my strength gave away my heart,
and left me crumble in magical pain,
I looked at his face and gaped,
When I heard him say " He is the one I am made for "
I dropped like a pack of cards ,
When he unveiled my heart that I had tucked away ,
And stepped in to stay deep,  "Deep in my heart "


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The Heaven

Few words about my conversation with supreme power , here we go....

You gave me a name , lust and desires ,
Few I accomplished few I crave for;

On my way , I heard when you gave a call ,
Your tyrant ways , I swear
Your claims are  bizarre
So are your names and
Various appearances for all ;

Like a slave I move on a slate path
And follow every word that you say
On my journey in the world
That you say you spin the way you want ;

Now when you say I am a Coluber
Lost in my name , lust and desires ,
And have moved away from  "The Heaven "
That I seek in your arms !
Tell me who is to be blamed  ,
When you claim that you are the creator of all ?

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Behind the Knock

In the line of fire

Only a handful to laud
My enemy , My desires
Locked away in my heart
Few miles on fire
Free from my desires
My shaky strides became strong
Strong amid fire
An unattached hard rock
In my nutshell with my deep thoughts
But the rudiments of life
Gave a hard knock
My facet  , The vitals  thronged
My grass roots became stronger
Stronger than I thought
My only enemy , my desires
Glanced ,Couldn't stop
Looked at
The one who was behind that knock
A promise,thereafter ,
A symphony of laughter 
" All I hear is behind that knock   "

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The Fragrance of Oaks

 Bed of Roses and fragrance of Oaks -my attempt to take you to a different world...

On a mysterious road towards extreme desires
With a note that heavens wrote and said " I am your guide"
Before I could erode and say "Now I am tired "
A lucent ,very rich , vivid ray came and broke the ice ,
It seemed to have come to stay by my side .
My belief , who told me ' You can win only if you desire "
Chose to go with dazzle of wind and showered me with avice ,
" The road you chose has become luminous, 
Now don't doubt nor you should feel frightened ,
Hold the cord and  play the violin " !
I froze , on the road that had now brightened,
When the Autumn rose on its wings
Before it went ,it said " You are pardoned "
Eyes closed and lips tied , 
I held my soul though under the folds
I quivered " Here's the fortune the only treasure I have ,
From now on its your possession "
The petals on my road,
The musk around my throat ,
The wreath I adorn,
Have come from  his garden !
My belief " You can win only if you desire "
Has come true ! 
The mysterious road that I chose has led me to his garden ,
Away from the sheen of world , On a bed of roses
I roll  in The Fragrance of Oaks  !


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Pleasures

Can you hear me sigh , my souls has no repose
Lost my strength ,have neither patience nor control ;
All my dreams are about being in your arms
They have now become , my abode !

Though I know you are mine
But away for some reason unknown ;
I long to reside in your arms
And  feel the pleasure
Am sure you too feel the high
That is now in proportion with intoxication ;
Elated I lie , in extreme elation 
Swept by emotions and diminished control !

You my life , tell me no more words  
Neither feel triumph while I sigh , 
Nor pout your lips at me
It might lift from my heart
the meaning of pleasure,
Pleasure of being out of control !


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Travel

From the garden of paradise you ordered me " Travel "

In the melody of new spring , away from the venom ;

Speechless , learnt a new vernacular ,

Overwhelmed  I travel !

The blue sea ,

The fathomless ocean ,

are witness to my journey without fear

Now when I learnt the secret , am atop fate ;

Since you ordered me "Travel"

My flowing tresses on top of my apparel 

appear burgundy , at times coral

I flaunt my ravishing smile ,

that bears the secret behind the colours of my ravel ;

The spark in my eyes has grown wider,

it can topple the light coming from the seething rays ;

Now don't ask me no questions while I blossom  ,

while I travel !

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NIRVANA

Few lines  inspired by Bagawad Gita

I questioned myself in ebony,  in dark
Why do I suffer?  

For I have no birth or death,
For me there is no mind, 
there is no bondage or liberation, no good or evil
For I have no name and form. 
Why do I shed tears ?  

O my mind, why do you wander about deluded, like an unclean spirit? 
Why cant I Behold the Self indivisible. 
And be happy through renunciation of attachment.  

when I know my verily is Truth,
devoid of change, motionless, one, of the nature of freedom.   
Why do I suffer, seeking the objects of desires?  

When all the scriptures say that
 " The Truth is without attributes, pure, immutable,bodiless, and existing equally everywhere ".

I cut off the five - selfishness, doubt, wrong austerities and rites, lust, hate;

threw off the five - desire to be born with a body, or without a body, self-will, 

restlessness, ignorance '
   

I roused myself by My Self; trained myself by My Self.  Under the shelter 

of My Self, and live in supreme joy,   have gone beyond the illusion of Samsara,

 the muddy road of transmigration so difficult to pass;

 I have crossed to the other shore and,am free from doubts and temporal desires,
I cherish five - faith, watchfulness, energy, contemplation, vision.
 Have broken the five fetters - lust, hate, delusion,

pride, false views 

have reached the deep contemplation 

and I feel the joy of NIRVANA !



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consciousness; 

WILL BE BACK SOON

I have been away for quite some time but will be back soon , here's the preface for my next book..... thought
.of sharing with you all....

beyond the Milky Way

I am lost , am out in space
I wonder why did you say ??
"You will cushion while I paddle
You will remove the pebbles from my way "
Like a horse now when I gallop
I feel the pain , I swear
I cant breathe I gasp for some fresh air

Cant you hear my heart ramble
Cant you read my eyes
Now dry , they poured out
Every drop that could reveal the marks
Became a measure of my heart aches

Cant you feel
The numbness in the air
That cast its shadow on me
Has become stagnant
Has become a reason
For me to question you
My existence when you made up your mind
To let me seethe in pain
Not heal this heart
Though you promised
You will relieve me from the hollowness
Of the sphere ,A World of Fantasy
At the same time
Rich , an abundance of sorrow
Called " Fools Paradise"
The existence of  few moths
who live to achieve
Let others down , laugh at others dreams
Who tend to ignore " The monuments of their achievements
will not last , nor will their memories "


Now can I ask to show me the way
To star studded Galaxy I heard its beyond the Milky Way
 I wish to walk
Am tired of galloping on the streets
That lead to nowhere ! 

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cant recall my name

Like a new rainbow I smile all the way

On a bulwark that leads to stars ,  not far away

Veil a secret behind the smile on my face
While I travel , am on sail
My furious attire ,my brazen arrogance 
I dropped on my way
My bare face , my audacious vernacular
My dialect
Are witness to my freedom from the materialism
From the pain

Did I hear some one ask  my name ??
I am anonymous cant recall my name
Did I hear some one ask about my native land ??
I am a nomad , have no place
Having purified my inner self from filth
Am able to relate with the  inner mystical dimensions
of his world , have drifted away from the world known as " A Game "
My journey towards actualisation of truth
On a path of love and devotion towards perfection
Is now , all I seek
So where is the need for an attire or a land with a name
The Sufism has led me to the world
Where neither I fear loneliness nor the ultimate
Naked I walk the bulwark , cant recall my name .

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Why

An array of my dreams ,
A sheaf never one could see ,
I haggard in ravines ,
Wilted , shriveled up
Couldn't dampen 
the hankering !

Why did I slow down ?
Why couldn't I  see ?
Why didn't I listen to my heart beat ?

Now ashen ,emaciated
I turn back to look at my smothered affinity ,
All that I can see is
A flume full of skeletons of my dreams !

If wishes were horses ,
I would ride to go back ,
Become a mermaid ,
Bathe in the waters of ravines ,
And moisten my famished dreams .

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once again

A sensual piece Once Again !


You heard me right
Its not you but
the sparkle in your eyes
behind the fire
that ignited me once again !

Surprise me
Embellish my mane
with jasmine
Bathe my naked body
with splashes of 
"Moon Shine in the Garden "
Moist my lips
with burgundy flowers
With you am in a world 
that I can not define
The feel of your breaths is so divine
I forgot
Don't ask my name again !

My galloping strides
The flutter of my wings
Are here to say
Quench my thirst
with your breath
that is now mine
Caress my eyes
Whisper my name with every breath you take
Your body your soul is  mine
Say that , once again !


* Moon Shine in the Garden -jasmine , known for its intoxicating property)
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flames

The look in your eyes
Heart felt
Left with no words to say
My apologies
How do I convey

The stars in my eyes
diminished with time
I staggered , held on to my breath
Knew you are naive
The grip loosened , I let go of My Life
Few word of wisdom to enlighten your life
Wish had shared

Look up, look at the sky
"The garner of advice"
Watches you , your every stride
Says " Mysterious are my ways ,
Your first step in this race
With or without guide
Was ensured , you thrive
Each one of you have no entity
But are witness to the mystery that prevails "

Wipe out the tears that roll down your eyes
Armor yourself ,
The only way to free yourself from pain
Now cleanse me with fresh water
Dress me up
Embellish my hair
Render me to holy flames
Before my body turns stale !



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