next life

           

I am in a wonder land , like butterfly I fly....in search of nectar , from bloom to bloom I fly ....at times its  rosemary, at times its orchids .............at times daffodils , every day and night until I am breathless  but no respite i find

Don't you think you are prejudiced and unfair...else  what did I do to deserve distress this life ...neither you answer my prayers , nor you confer some compassion ....no matter how hard I may try to please you my life

Now when you have made up your mind , not to relieve me of pain this life...lets make a deal for next life..I want only laughter , no pain next life....tell me now , what do you want me from me, so that I don't have to die a death each day next life. 

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marvels of destiny

                                                                                                         

In ruins I laugh , I smile when you say........ "your defeat is eminent,you have failed" my stars you say "are eclipsed and I should accept my fate"..I turn my face with a mischief  in my eyes ,I gallop like a stallion and ignore the pain

Your stern eyes you know are fake....your laughter ,and my disasters are marvels of destiny....I Will bear the pain ,I know I have to sustain though i may be bereft of life

With a smile on my face , here's my invite....if you could entice my fate , I will be your slave...you can captivate me for life..the only bargain I can suggest my life......it would be great if you can free me from anguish this life.

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eternity

                                     
                                       
       
                                               like I said
                                  I am no one to write my destiny
                                             I am a pebble
                                           that you have cast
                                           I am your creation
                                            I am at your feet
                                      confer some love on me
                                            I am your child
                            inadvertently I may have  gone wrong
                                       with no knowledge
                                            no wisdom
                                 but now I feel, I should seek
                                 an asylum,a refuge in thee
                          I am forthright,candid while  I speak
                                 wrap me in your vast arms
                                 I need no love,no materials
                                        need only a cover
                            from glitter and glaze of this world
                                    lead me I am your slave
                            I wait for you to sprawl your arms
                                show me the way to eternity
                                        I wait for you
                                           my lord

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what you sow is what you reap

                                              
                                                                

                                                                       

                        


                                                    You still had a chance
                                                            You let go
                                                               And
                                                            You lost
                                                         You thought
                                              You could liquefy my heart
                                                             But
                                              There was , now no chance
                                             You gave nothing but pain
                                                            And
                                       Lied when ever you had a chance
                                        You,  yourself are to be blamed
                                             Now don't blame it on god
                               Eternal darkness you said is what you seek
                                                   Penance,repentance
                                           No family,no friends,no home
                                                    No one to care for
                                           Just burning streets you cruise
                                                     Eyes downcast
                                                Avoiding a direct look
                                                         Why you?
                                                Look in to your heart
                                               Look back at your past
                                        What you sow is what you reap
                                                  This is your fate
                                                Don't be so aghast
                                                          Now
                                              Face it with some grace
                                           No questions you should ask
                                                   
                                                       Since,I am
                                                       Now gone
                                    But I care, as a human being I am there
                                               Life gives you one chance
                                                  You grab it or lose it
                                                       Don't sulk
                                                 Look for new path
                                                           But
                                                Be honest to yourself
                                                  Defrost your heart
                                             Look in to your own eyes
                                          Every morning when you rise
                                   If you are able to gaze into your eyes
                               If you able to look straight when you smile
                                              No one is there to stop
                                                You from grabbing
                                                   What you want
                                            Make no mistake this time
                                                    Life is angry
                                                     With you
                                        You need to purify your heart
                                               Before you ask
                                                        For
                                          Blessings from almighty
                                                       Who
                                      Makes you pay for your wrongs
                                       In this life, right here, right now
                                         There;s no hell ,no paradise.

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first time in my life

                                                            

It was a beautiful moment of my life......when I saw the passion he had in  in his eyes...and he kissed my hands and said " you were meant for me,where were you hiding all this while"

I saw his face flush and lips purse into a smile...when he wrapped me in his arms and said  " hold me tight  baby "...under wrap my feelings and  I looked away....  letting him not read my eyes and my heart say "don't leave me tonight "

 Carried away by the feel ...I looked away and  I heard him say " Now I have got you into my sights ... I wont let you go, go away ..now you ought to mine baby ....for rest of my life "

I looked at the calm on his face...and watched him smile  when he heard me say "  I am in love with you ..all I can say... darling I know you are mine "  

...... I have  tears in my eyes ....when I think of ....the most beautiful moment of my life....when I gave,  my heart away.... the first time in my life.

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the Midas touch

                                                                           

                                       You thrust hard my benevolent heart
                                                now when I  am gone
                                              followed by your envoy
                                                   that I don't trust

                                                  now when your
                                                   envoy conveys
                                               that whatever you touch
                                                     turns into dust
                                                          that
                                        you don't have the Midas touch
                                               
                                                    I feel its time
                                               for me to suggest

                                                   live you must
                                                  in agony in pain
                                             you don't need no touch
                                                 to turn you into dust

                                                 your smugness
                                                   your lust
                                      has worked against you and
                                                   is a must
                                        the god you don't trust
                                     made you go through a test
                                                  you failed
                                               your arrogance
                                              that you can write
                                                 your destiny
                                                  has failed

                                             you hurt me hard
                                      now let destiny play its part
                                        don't follow me around
                                            I am not a clown
                                             I don't believe in
                                               your claims

                                   though I don't believe in god
                                   but my deeds are no wrong
                                   its karma , though I sound
                                            a little tough
                                    but i don't want to rust
                                in a world that you cant trust

                                      if you take my advice
                                    put yourself through a test
                                      fill up the questionnaire
                                     see how many times
                                         you have thrust
                                      this benevolent heart
                                               now
                               you have no right to claim
                                              mercy
                                      nor compassion
                                        your ordeal
                                    is self proclaimed


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stay away

                                                

                                                                


                                         if you think i am a doll
                                             when you feel like
                                          you can play with me
                                             i am a figurine

                                         you can take a walk
                                            i am a stalwart
                                       you cant play with me
                                           
                                     i have changed my mind
                                   i have seen through your lies
                                      i know you are a guile
                                       i have no faith in thee

                                      i suggest look for a liar
                                          to suit your style
                          and stay away from me with your sleaze
                                       

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pristine love

                                              
Love is eternal for me, an immutable feeling I seek ...try to read my heart and you will see I am a messenger of love....lost in mercenary and unscrupulous world....and I feel life can be beautiful if you could see it through my eyes...
But some how I have my qualms and i don't believe in thee.... I feel you are a chauvinist ,who exists for lust and worldly pleasures ....and  you are unaware of pristine love I talk about.....

If you think you can walk hand in hand with me.... from you , a great sacrifice I seek....give up the materialistic and lustful life for me....the betrayal is the last thing I want to see..... drown me in your heart and let go your pride if you truly seek my love.
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beautiful smile

Now if you wanna come back in my life, you will have to convince my heart....   I am not the one, who will let you get away with that beautiful smile nor those crafty eyes....   

Don't you think you can sweep my heart , I see the lie behind that salient smile....if you think your present can be mine and the future I don't wanna talk  about.....

Give me a promise that you would be mine, your past you will erase from your mind... if you abide by  my conditions , I can give it a thought  and give you one last chance...

Don't you think you can get away with your lies...i have now known your maneuver style .....  swear upon life , you will not  smile  .... I don't want to get enraptured by your smile , that now  I know  is a beautiful lie .

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you are so beautiful

I felt the freshness in the air when he said  "you are so beautiful and  I want you to be mine" that made me smile...

I felt his breath close to mine when he said " you are so beautiful be mine for rest of your life " and  I smiled.....

I looked into his eyes and saw the assurance when he came close and whispered "  when I am there don't question your life , I will make sure you get everything you desire , just hold my hand and you will find , from now on you are the one who lives in my heart and mind ..."

In disbelief  I looked at the red carpet he lay when I arrived ......I looked at my self in the mirror through his eyes while  "you are so beautiful " kept  ringing in my mind ..I wish to be in this bliss for rest of my life.

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friday night

         This is my 3rd attempt to compose lyrics , your feed back would  be appreciated ...critics are most welcome

                                              

Friday night , I saw a shooting star ...and  I heard a Willet call .... I couldn't stop my gaze, at  sky ...I got so moved , that night .... it was in middle of night.....

The night was though ,  pitch dark...but  shooting star ,  threw gush of light.....made me wonder.... why the sky was  dark...and there were no .. stars in  sky.....and where was the moon.... that  night....Icouldn't hear..... a sound that night...and i heard..... the Willet call .... in middle of night....

I blinked my eyes..... at mesmerising that night....and I saw..... some one move behind the bush that night...I gaped and blinked that night...it was a Friday night...

 I tip toed..... towards the bush and was sure....I am in , for a pleasant surprise....and I heard the Willet babble that night " don't let him go tonight " and we moved and jived that night...the shooting star smiled at us.. that night...it was a Friday night.

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hear my heart beat

                                                          

                                                                                          

when i need you love , i close my eyes and think of you.....the emotions go high and i can see you.....engraved in my heart ....... and i can feel you hold me in your arms ....

overwhelmed in love when i look around for you.....i lose you my heart but your aroma i feel still floats in the air.

love me my heart....you are the only treasure i ever sought..... i  cherish every moment spent  in your arms .....and am glad that we met.

don't you say , i am in love with virtual love but hear me when i say ...  feel my heart beat and ask why does it crave for love ....its just that i chose not to bare my heart ..so don't conclude what you see with your bare eyes or on a hearsay  .

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dont mourn no more

                                         

                    you try to hold ......... i 'll fly , i'll go.........i thought i will let you    know.............................

you try to control.... i am a free bird...i will go from your life  , i thought i ' ll let you know

hope you know....i live my life on my terms....i wont let close till i am too sure...i think you know by now...

life is never  so kind nor i  need to remind....you are not alone but i too have my share of grouse that i dont show but i found a way to pour.....

sticky situations are a part of life..........distress will come and go...dont mourn no more just watch me smile as i feel  the pain grow...still i roar...i need no more a shoulder to pour but some one to share few smiles that i would like to adore for rest of my life. 

  
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fate

i fell in love ...but life , like you said " i am afraid , its not in your fate ".... before the spring could break , i lost my love .....with a broken heart , i  gaze at the ocean but it seems to have no cure for my pain.....i gaze at the sky in search of  some alleviate for my pain...and it says " darling , i cant change your fate" 

 each and every fragment of my heart now wails " give me some love "....life you have to hear me out ....don't denude me , i am in deep pain..... .....you can not turn back on me or walk away and leave me  suffering when my heart is slaughtered once again.....

it may sound like i have lost my mind,but i don't care.....life you will have to write my fate,once again ......no matter you may have to fight with my destiny but don't leave me burning in this pain.

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when you need me

sometimes i feel , i should have been a little astute....and things would have worked for me...when i gave my heart to thee... i was sure you will harbour it from storms in the sea ....

but you didn't wait nor let me speak... your prerogative in life was thee...its not only me..you too suffer, when you realise i have ceased and cant be seen...butyour pride is larger than life it seems....

life has been harsh you know what i mean ..  let go your conceit and follow what i preach,and you will see how wonderful life can be........i am sure you can read my heart when i speak...few petals you can gather and come to me.......and i am there for life when you need me.

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true love

baby dont go ...you know you are hurting me... twisted like a rope, we were together through thick and thin.....

you know you were my hope...but somehow you decided to move away from me.. tell me how do i cope...when you are not there with me...you promised , we shall together reach the shore........ but how could you not sail with me...

you don't seem to know.....the pain i go through, when i think of the moments you spent with me...but now i decided ,i am gonna go...its not worth it...the pain is unbearable for me....

now let the destiny take control...i believe i should let go the one i love ... and.if my love is true,i am sure ....you are gonna come back to me....

the law of nature you know, don't try to control the loved ones and let them go ... they do come back  and i strongly believe in it....

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desdemona

neither i am a phyllidae nor am anole ...i am a butterfly from crossroads...my siliquies , my reflection are my companion on my way to abode

i was named desdemona...for some reason unknown......away from crossroads.....in narsiccistic world.....i pry for enlightenment ....try to reason out your contradicotary standards , reason behind afliction.....i wish i could know....still i accept the misortune with gratitude....i believe you being the highest, will never be unfair if the pain you inflicted upon me were in your knowledge...but once you bear with me,the pain i feel ...and experience ,what your loved ones go through.....am sure you will agree with me and will be careful  next time when you create a new mould.

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aimless journey

                                                                          

life i thought you had a change of mind ....but i see no kindness in your attitude towards me...you were the one who came around and told me...." here is a magic wand to relieve you from miseries, now you don't need to maunder in search of relief "  

....like an ardent follower i believed your words  ....but here i wander,with the magic wand that is ineffectual ......and look for thee....for little mercies and  wonder if you could confer on me....

  like a seafront washed away by an abrasion wave...eroded, corroded ....have become a shingle ....why cant you be kind to me...all my hollers,i feel are insignificant to you.....have become mindless...no,.now i need no respite,no benignity ....i am prepared to bear the brunt of the journey that though is aimless for me......

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the moon was high

 did you see the moon last night , its errant smile.....its roving eyes , it told me a secret  that i am supposed to hide....

the night was young....the moon was high....ocean i could see was thrilled last night....the tide was high ....the secret of last night ..i am trying to hide...

if i told you ....the secret behind intemperance last night....will you be able to hide....the secret behind my demure smile ???

hmmmmm the moon and me had an oration last night...it told me " your destiny is about to change , he is on his way...be patient for some more time.....but you are supposed to hide the secret i shared tonight "

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rendezvous

 when i looked   at the sky.. i couldn't believe my eyes when i saw i was flying along with a silver cloud up  in the sky.... the moon gave a big smile, when it saw me nearing the silver line with a twinkle in my eyes....... the stars were so bright and they whispered to me  " you are in for a pleasant surprise " i couldn't believe my ears when i heard some one call out my name...  

 i turned around to see who is following me.....all i could see was jasmine spread around me... and i lay on sea bed like a mermaid with a star fish  next to me... i wondered about the mystery behind  the sky and the sea.......... the starfish crawled towards the weed......my heart skipped a beat....when i saw him smile at me from behind the weed...

 i looked up at the sky to convey my gratitude but was surprised.......... when i couldn't see the sky... i looked towards the weed and wondered about the mystery of jasmine..... i lost him when  i heard the thunder and came out of my awesome dream......... i rubbed open my eyes and was surprised to see a rendezvous lying next to me,and realised... he had come to see me .

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unable to post comments

hello fellowbloggers,
i am unable to post comments on the blogs of many fellow bloggers i was wondering if its just me or others also facing the same problem..i type the comment and when i click on post the comment disappears:( haaallllp:(

how do i live without you

 life without you , i feel is like an ocean without brim.....i feel like an arowana without fins.....i though i could live without you but realised without you i cant even spin 

my life , i cant  define.....how i feel, its like sunrise not seen for seasons .....my heart has begun to sink....i feel like a lifeless leaf that has lost its true colour

i thought  i could breathe  without you ,but my life without you is a struggle.....life feels so bleak without you that i cant even sense nor feel....its like a desert without pincushion

i may not reveal how i feel about you......but i need you more than you can imagine......i feel lost without you......i cant bear the thought of losing you from my vision.

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with a smile

life is a desert ,still i smile...i sea an oasis ,i try to fly....but the evil eye leaves me behind....i feel so naked without an attire ......but i share my thoughts....i empty my heart ,pour out pain.....life you are ruthless still i dont complain ......i admire the way you scripted my destiny....its your empire ,i am a slave .... a little granule,you can fondle me or crush my wings.....i am at your mercy.....pain in  my heart,struggling .....i continue my journey , blinded by my desires..in hope some day the vision of divine will change my life....and you will embrace this downtrodden.....at times i feel i want to give up.....but you hold my rein..... i try to fight but i fail .. , i realise i cant oppose your game...so i continue with a smile embedded with pain....in hope some day you will free me from this domain.

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rainbow in my eyes

 

 when i closed my eyes.....i could see........a rainbow in the night......now, dont laugh at me............... look into my eyes .......and you will see the rainbow in my eyes .....and you will believe,i didnt dream........

when i closed my eyes..... i could see .....i was flying...... my love with me, i held him tight.....in the sky,we danced last night...... and i could see.....the rainbow smile......splendour was the sky and it blinked at me ... when he kissed me last night .

i wont be surprised......if you dont believe......my story of last night.....when i could see ......the rainbow dance with me when he kissed me last night..........look at my cheeks .......and you will see......they are rosy and i am shy.....and you will believe.....

i didnt lie , nor did i dream....but i blushed last night.

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break free

you cant run you cant leave...its time to hear all my pleas ....don't you see i am on my knees....you are the one who can free me .... from the pain this  life has given me......feel my heart , hear my heart beat...all it says is  change my destiny....or  take me away, save me from this pain....all i want is break free....

i am still young , its long way to go.....rip open my heart  ,and you will see...its hollowed by harsh spell of destiny ... struggling to reap so that i can breathe...

when you see the smile in my eyes...don't you mistake....its the pain i hide from the world , from their eyes....."O" my destiny.....why couldn't you spare me.....all i can say either  bless me with a smile .....a smile that i fake all the time....or put me to sleep .

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set me free

you know I am trying hard  to break free ....I am trying to leave my emotions and pain behind .....no point I see , why shouldn't I flee....no, I am not a coward but tired of trying to foresee my destiny.....please listen to me when I plead..... set me free..... please set me free .. .....

you could have thought before writing my destiny....singled out in this world , now I cant live.....give me one chance to make you realise my agony.....let me be with you and you will see.....the pain that I have gone through and you will feel....I am right when I plead set me free....please set me free....

I will surprise you with my pleads when we meet ......you wont be able to stop my  tears nor they will recede....you will be left with no choice but to set me free.....oh please set me free.

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dont let me go

i picked up threads when i saw some hope .... .......i tried to move but crumbled before i could go , i gathered some strength when i saw you at the end of  road.....my strides were slow and i lost you before i could open the door.

can you fetch some pollen spread on the leaves....can you gather some musk spread in the air for me....can you swelter for  some more time in the heat for me , i am stuck in a flytrap struggling to free me .......i was trying to gather some nectar but am entangled , am piping like a bee....will be there in no time if you can wait for me.....i know i am at the extreme end but  am trying to reach....   till then , gather some pollen and some musk for me .

life can misguide , it can be deceitful at times ....no i am not trying to preach but  am trying to rhyme ....what i feel....we are two souls and now so close....don't let the wind and storm blow us apart....the only desire, now i have is to wake up in your arms .... now don't lose hope , just hold on to me... please don't let me go.

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in my heart

like a weeping willow withstood several storms......i lean to grow.....
like an oyster in the ocean.....i travel alone..........
like a beehive up on a tree....i stand alone...........
my teardrops ,are the only treasure..... that i own .....

dig my heart....its deeper than the sea....full of love.......
sweeter than  nectar.... is all i know .... 
buried my heart ,in a deep grave ......cries out aloud.......allow me to pour....

 blind in search of love....i suffer in deep pain
my wait for sunshine.......
my wait for blossom on the trees.....
my crave for unconditional love
a burning desire......in my heart... is all i feel .

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you took my heart away

i don't want to hear you say that you didn't listen to your heart beat.....i would rather say....its too late for you to come along ...as i moved away when you broke my heart

i was listening to my heart beat , when i heard you say "you stole my heart away ".... overflown with emotions i got carried away ...i fell in love

when i stopped listening to my heart beat and heard what my mind had to say...  i left in pain with a heart that ached

 i was in love when i heard you say " you stole my heart away"....  you are a fool who thought "i was there for some kind of gain "

when you weigh my love with your past affairs.....you made a mistake and let me go away .........i was there to give my heart away

you didn't hear the way my heart beat nor the words so strong .......its too late for you too come along, i have moved away with a heart that aches and don't hear ,no more,what my heart says.

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valentine

on top of the world with my imagination i fly ....my only apprehension will you be my valentine this time.....its time  for us to be together and all i seek nothing but your love for one night , just one night .

on top of the world with my imagination i fly.....do you want me to be your valentine....and paint the canvas that has been all white and i seek some colour of your love tonight , just for one night.

my love,if i am your imagination then please...don't stop from being by my side for one night....and don't let me feel lonely tonight,not tonight.

my heart is canvas that needs, some hue...that has been denied for some time ....but now i feel can be embroidered with your imagination ....if you tried this time , just try this time.

my love if you painted my heart this time,i am sure i wont stop from flying till next valentine ....though you may leave after tonight  but be my valentine,valentine tonight !

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