friday night

         This is my 3rd attempt to compose lyrics , your feed back would  be appreciated ...critics are most welcome

                                              

Friday night , I saw a shooting star ...and  I heard a Willet call .... I couldn't stop my gaze, at  sky ...I got so moved , that night .... it was in middle of night.....

The night was though ,  pitch dark...but  shooting star ,  threw gush of light.....made me wonder.... why the sky was  dark...and there were no .. stars in  sky.....and where was the moon.... that  night....Icouldn't hear..... a sound that night...and i heard..... the Willet call .... in middle of night....

I blinked my eyes..... at mesmerising that night....and I saw..... some one move behind the bush that night...I gaped and blinked that night...it was a Friday night...

 I tip toed..... towards the bush and was sure....I am in , for a pleasant surprise....and I heard the Willet babble that night " don't let him go tonight " and we moved and jived that night...the shooting star smiled at us.. that night...it was a Friday night.

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hear my heart beat

                                                          

                                                                                          

when i need you love , i close my eyes and think of you.....the emotions go high and i can see you.....engraved in my heart ....... and i can feel you hold me in your arms ....

overwhelmed in love when i look around for you.....i lose you my heart but your aroma i feel still floats in the air.

love me my heart....you are the only treasure i ever sought..... i  cherish every moment spent  in your arms .....and am glad that we met.

don't you say , i am in love with virtual love but hear me when i say ...  feel my heart beat and ask why does it crave for love ....its just that i chose not to bare my heart ..so don't conclude what you see with your bare eyes or on a hearsay  .

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dont mourn no more

                                         

                    you try to hold ......... i 'll fly , i'll go.........i thought i will let you    know.............................

you try to control.... i am a free bird...i will go from your life  , i thought i ' ll let you know

hope you know....i live my life on my terms....i wont let close till i am too sure...i think you know by now...

life is never  so kind nor i  need to remind....you are not alone but i too have my share of grouse that i dont show but i found a way to pour.....

sticky situations are a part of life..........distress will come and go...dont mourn no more just watch me smile as i feel  the pain grow...still i roar...i need no more a shoulder to pour but some one to share few smiles that i would like to adore for rest of my life. 

  
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fate

i fell in love ...but life , like you said " i am afraid , its not in your fate ".... before the spring could break , i lost my love .....with a broken heart , i  gaze at the ocean but it seems to have no cure for my pain.....i gaze at the sky in search of  some alleviate for my pain...and it says " darling , i cant change your fate" 

 each and every fragment of my heart now wails " give me some love "....life you have to hear me out ....don't denude me , i am in deep pain..... .....you can not turn back on me or walk away and leave me  suffering when my heart is slaughtered once again.....

it may sound like i have lost my mind,but i don't care.....life you will have to write my fate,once again ......no matter you may have to fight with my destiny but don't leave me burning in this pain.

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when you need me

sometimes i feel , i should have been a little astute....and things would have worked for me...when i gave my heart to thee... i was sure you will harbour it from storms in the sea ....

but you didn't wait nor let me speak... your prerogative in life was thee...its not only me..you too suffer, when you realise i have ceased and cant be seen...butyour pride is larger than life it seems....

life has been harsh you know what i mean ..  let go your conceit and follow what i preach,and you will see how wonderful life can be........i am sure you can read my heart when i speak...few petals you can gather and come to me.......and i am there for life when you need me.

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true love

baby dont go ...you know you are hurting me... twisted like a rope, we were together through thick and thin.....

you know you were my hope...but somehow you decided to move away from me.. tell me how do i cope...when you are not there with me...you promised , we shall together reach the shore........ but how could you not sail with me...

you don't seem to know.....the pain i go through, when i think of the moments you spent with me...but now i decided ,i am gonna go...its not worth it...the pain is unbearable for me....

now let the destiny take control...i believe i should let go the one i love ... and.if my love is true,i am sure ....you are gonna come back to me....

the law of nature you know, don't try to control the loved ones and let them go ... they do come back  and i strongly believe in it....

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desdemona

neither i am a phyllidae nor am anole ...i am a butterfly from crossroads...my siliquies , my reflection are my companion on my way to abode

i was named desdemona...for some reason unknown......away from crossroads.....in narsiccistic world.....i pry for enlightenment ....try to reason out your contradicotary standards , reason behind afliction.....i wish i could know....still i accept the misortune with gratitude....i believe you being the highest, will never be unfair if the pain you inflicted upon me were in your knowledge...but once you bear with me,the pain i feel ...and experience ,what your loved ones go through.....am sure you will agree with me and will be careful  next time when you create a new mould.

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aimless journey

                                                                          

life i thought you had a change of mind ....but i see no kindness in your attitude towards me...you were the one who came around and told me...." here is a magic wand to relieve you from miseries, now you don't need to maunder in search of relief "  

....like an ardent follower i believed your words  ....but here i wander,with the magic wand that is ineffectual ......and look for thee....for little mercies and  wonder if you could confer on me....

  like a seafront washed away by an abrasion wave...eroded, corroded ....have become a shingle ....why cant you be kind to me...all my hollers,i feel are insignificant to you.....have become mindless...no,.now i need no respite,no benignity ....i am prepared to bear the brunt of the journey that though is aimless for me......

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the moon was high

 did you see the moon last night , its errant smile.....its roving eyes , it told me a secret  that i am supposed to hide....

the night was young....the moon was high....ocean i could see was thrilled last night....the tide was high ....the secret of last night ..i am trying to hide...

if i told you ....the secret behind intemperance last night....will you be able to hide....the secret behind my demure smile ???

hmmmmm the moon and me had an oration last night...it told me " your destiny is about to change , he is on his way...be patient for some more time.....but you are supposed to hide the secret i shared tonight "

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rendezvous

 when i looked   at the sky.. i couldn't believe my eyes when i saw i was flying along with a silver cloud up  in the sky.... the moon gave a big smile, when it saw me nearing the silver line with a twinkle in my eyes....... the stars were so bright and they whispered to me  " you are in for a pleasant surprise " i couldn't believe my ears when i heard some one call out my name...  

 i turned around to see who is following me.....all i could see was jasmine spread around me... and i lay on sea bed like a mermaid with a star fish  next to me... i wondered about the mystery behind  the sky and the sea.......... the starfish crawled towards the weed......my heart skipped a beat....when i saw him smile at me from behind the weed...

 i looked up at the sky to convey my gratitude but was surprised.......... when i couldn't see the sky... i looked towards the weed and wondered about the mystery of jasmine..... i lost him when  i heard the thunder and came out of my awesome dream......... i rubbed open my eyes and was surprised to see a rendezvous lying next to me,and realised... he had come to see me .

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unable to post comments

hello fellowbloggers,
i am unable to post comments on the blogs of many fellow bloggers i was wondering if its just me or others also facing the same problem..i type the comment and when i click on post the comment disappears:( haaallllp:(

how do i live without you

 life without you , i feel is like an ocean without brim.....i feel like an arowana without fins.....i though i could live without you but realised without you i cant even spin 

my life , i cant  define.....how i feel, its like sunrise not seen for seasons .....my heart has begun to sink....i feel like a lifeless leaf that has lost its true colour

i thought  i could breathe  without you ,but my life without you is a struggle.....life feels so bleak without you that i cant even sense nor feel....its like a desert without pincushion

i may not reveal how i feel about you......but i need you more than you can imagine......i feel lost without you......i cant bear the thought of losing you from my vision.

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with a smile

life is a desert ,still i smile...i sea an oasis ,i try to fly....but the evil eye leaves me behind....i feel so naked without an attire ......but i share my thoughts....i empty my heart ,pour out pain.....life you are ruthless still i dont complain ......i admire the way you scripted my destiny....its your empire ,i am a slave .... a little granule,you can fondle me or crush my wings.....i am at your mercy.....pain in  my heart,struggling .....i continue my journey , blinded by my desires..in hope some day the vision of divine will change my life....and you will embrace this downtrodden.....at times i feel i want to give up.....but you hold my rein..... i try to fight but i fail .. , i realise i cant oppose your game...so i continue with a smile embedded with pain....in hope some day you will free me from this domain.

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rainbow in my eyes

 

 when i closed my eyes.....i could see........a rainbow in the night......now, dont laugh at me............... look into my eyes .......and you will see the rainbow in my eyes .....and you will believe,i didnt dream........

when i closed my eyes..... i could see .....i was flying...... my love with me, i held him tight.....in the sky,we danced last night...... and i could see.....the rainbow smile......splendour was the sky and it blinked at me ... when he kissed me last night .

i wont be surprised......if you dont believe......my story of last night.....when i could see ......the rainbow dance with me when he kissed me last night..........look at my cheeks .......and you will see......they are rosy and i am shy.....and you will believe.....

i didnt lie , nor did i dream....but i blushed last night.

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break free

you cant run you cant leave...its time to hear all my pleas ....don't you see i am on my knees....you are the one who can free me .... from the pain this  life has given me......feel my heart , hear my heart beat...all it says is  change my destiny....or  take me away, save me from this pain....all i want is break free....

i am still young , its long way to go.....rip open my heart  ,and you will see...its hollowed by harsh spell of destiny ... struggling to reap so that i can breathe...

when you see the smile in my eyes...don't you mistake....its the pain i hide from the world , from their eyes....."O" my destiny.....why couldn't you spare me.....all i can say either  bless me with a smile .....a smile that i fake all the time....or put me to sleep .

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set me free

you know I am trying hard  to break free ....I am trying to leave my emotions and pain behind .....no point I see , why shouldn't I flee....no, I am not a coward but tired of trying to foresee my destiny.....please listen to me when I plead..... set me free..... please set me free .. .....

you could have thought before writing my destiny....singled out in this world , now I cant live.....give me one chance to make you realise my agony.....let me be with you and you will see.....the pain that I have gone through and you will feel....I am right when I plead set me free....please set me free....

I will surprise you with my pleads when we meet ......you wont be able to stop my  tears nor they will recede....you will be left with no choice but to set me free.....oh please set me free.

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dont let me go

i picked up threads when i saw some hope .... .......i tried to move but crumbled before i could go , i gathered some strength when i saw you at the end of  road.....my strides were slow and i lost you before i could open the door.

can you fetch some pollen spread on the leaves....can you gather some musk spread in the air for me....can you swelter for  some more time in the heat for me , i am stuck in a flytrap struggling to free me .......i was trying to gather some nectar but am entangled , am piping like a bee....will be there in no time if you can wait for me.....i know i am at the extreme end but  am trying to reach....   till then , gather some pollen and some musk for me .

life can misguide , it can be deceitful at times ....no i am not trying to preach but  am trying to rhyme ....what i feel....we are two souls and now so close....don't let the wind and storm blow us apart....the only desire, now i have is to wake up in your arms .... now don't lose hope , just hold on to me... please don't let me go.

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in my heart

like a weeping willow withstood several storms......i lean to grow.....
like an oyster in the ocean.....i travel alone..........
like a beehive up on a tree....i stand alone...........
my teardrops ,are the only treasure..... that i own .....

dig my heart....its deeper than the sea....full of love.......
sweeter than  nectar.... is all i know .... 
buried my heart ,in a deep grave ......cries out aloud.......allow me to pour....

 blind in search of love....i suffer in deep pain
my wait for sunshine.......
my wait for blossom on the trees.....
my crave for unconditional love
a burning desire......in my heart... is all i feel .

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you took my heart away

i don't want to hear you say that you didn't listen to your heart beat.....i would rather say....its too late for you to come along ...as i moved away when you broke my heart

i was listening to my heart beat , when i heard you say "you stole my heart away ".... overflown with emotions i got carried away ...i fell in love

when i stopped listening to my heart beat and heard what my mind had to say...  i left in pain with a heart that ached

 i was in love when i heard you say " you stole my heart away"....  you are a fool who thought "i was there for some kind of gain "

when you weigh my love with your past affairs.....you made a mistake and let me go away .........i was there to give my heart away

you didn't hear the way my heart beat nor the words so strong .......its too late for you too come along, i have moved away with a heart that aches and don't hear ,no more,what my heart says.

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valentine

on top of the world with my imagination i fly ....my only apprehension will you be my valentine this time.....its time  for us to be together and all i seek nothing but your love for one night , just one night .

on top of the world with my imagination i fly.....do you want me to be your valentine....and paint the canvas that has been all white and i seek some colour of your love tonight , just for one night.

my love,if i am your imagination then please...don't stop from being by my side for one night....and don't let me feel lonely tonight,not tonight.

my heart is canvas that needs, some hue...that has been denied for some time ....but now i feel can be embroidered with your imagination ....if you tried this time , just try this time.

my love if you painted my heart this time,i am sure i wont stop from flying till next valentine ....though you may leave after tonight  but be my valentine,valentine tonight !

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say something (partII)

                                  
i cant believe you left me gape in the night , i cant believe  you left me grope in the dark ,i cant believe you came so close but left me like a withered flower....ooooh  my love ,  i never knew you could be so mean and so is your heart ,the pain i feel you will never know .....you gave me no opportunity to disclose what was in my heart...you left me like you had no clue neither you spoke....and stopped me before i could say something.

when i think of the night when you were with me my love,all i remember is you got so close every time i tried to say something ,when i think of you i wonder what went wrong .....why you left me wander in the dark when  love was on the peak, oh my  love ... my life is empty  without your  love, i haven't moved away a step and wait for you to come back and hold me tight... place your lips on mine before i can say something, before i can say something

last night i wrote a beautiful song.... thinking of that night when you were with me, when it was dark.....
the tears that rolled down my eyes fell in my lap, in night so dark ....  it has begun to rain ,that's what i thought......my love for you is pure and true you got to realise....i wait for you on the hill top where we met the first time ....i cant move on without you , you got to realise...... my sad heart waits for you to love me the way you loved me that very night .....when you got so close every time i tried to say something , tried to say something .

i am sure you haven't gone too far that you cant hear my voice...i am sure you will change your mind when you hear me cry.....ooooh , please come back to me i wait for you night after night , to hold me tight... before i can say something, before i can say something.

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say something

i  loved the way you held me in your arms and whispered that you are in love before i could say something.....

i loved the way you kissed my eyes and whispered i am your love before i could say something.....

 i loved the way you put your hand on my lips and held me tight  before i could say something.....

the music that played in the night was astonishing and the lights were not so brilliant but just right ,everything seemed perfect we were like two bodies but one soul throughout the night........... i wish i could live through  that night once more when i couldn't say something.

i loved the way  you run your fingers through my hair before you pulled me close before i could say something......


i loved the way you looked into my eyes before you placed your lips on mine before i could say something.....


i felt the warmth of your breath from distance before you touched my soul , and drove me wild before i could say something.......

"Oh" that beautiful night, when the grip of love was so tight that we couldn't stop and swayed and held each other tight ,  the lights were not so brilliant but just right for that moment of love,when the music and your whispers drove me wild throughout the night..... i wish i could live  through  that night once more,when you stopped me before i could say something .

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Angels(dedicated to Andy)

This post is dedicated to my blogger friend Andy , whose one comment left me smiling all night long and the lines are inspired by my beak up from a beautiful relationship that i cherish till date and will continue to do so till i die.

                                


when i tried to be away from you ,when i wrote off your name from my life , when i left you and said "goodbye".....i saw you frown that you hide behind your smile......i couldn't stop my heart from crying, i had to move on with my life but i thought i must remind you, you are my love .....i am not there to share your life,i am not there to laugh at silly things you do but you are in my heart as long as i live,you are the one who follows me in all my dreams...you are the one who sleeps with my soul ...my love is deeper for you than you think....you are my love ,without you i am incomplete...but i left as it was need of time ,please bear with me for some more time and we shall meet again ,when we start a brand new life  ... we will be the angels in the sky,beautiful angels with heart of gold ,when we will have no priorities set in our life...our life will surround just you and me,just you and me.

when i tried to turn away from you , when i began  to move away from you, when i left and said "i am gone from your life "...i saw tears roll down that you hide behind your smile....i couldn't stop my heart from crying,i had to move on with my life but i thought i must remind you,you are my love....i am not there to hear your songs,i am not there to hold your hand when you are down, but you are the one who lives in my heart,you are the one who is my life...you are the one for whom my heart still bleeds... you are my love , without you i am incomplete....but i left as i had no choice...you had set the priorities in your life...now i wait for god to answer my prayers that we shall be together for rest of our lives ,when we start a brand new life.....we will be the angels in the sky,beautiful angels with beautiful hearts....when death will do us apart only to begin a new life.

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free my soul

In ocean of thoughts.......  wide spread my fins i tried to swim in search of true love........in ocean of thoughts ...... my mind on spin i tried to win some love for my heart...overwhelmed i thought .... this  time i'll win , i climbed the hill but fell from the top.....i screamed aloud in dark....but echo of  my screams whispered to me , you are lonely sweetheart....... i am not sane i feel  , its time to relieve this soul thats trying to free before it turns into sieve with repeated down falls......i have failed for ever i feel , its time to relieve , grieving this heart before it breaks down to hard....someone out there , if you hear my heart scream....have mercy on me , please relieve my soul from the hurt i receive .. i promise i'll.never ever  complain , why did you do that to me.....i beseech this night...i hope you hear me this time ...and relieve me of pain....may be next time when i am here ....i may not ask you to take me away !!
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only in dreams

The moment i felt , i am closer to shore.................some one shook me so hard that i realised , i was dreaming ...the moment i felt , its time to breathe ...i felt so choked , that i realised i was dreaming!!

Virgin my heart like a sea bed.....that hasn't seen the sun light till now, scattered like sand, went flying around the ocean...... that i was trying to sail through , while i was dreaming !!

My aroma my heart , is nectar of love.....that you will never find , if you try to be mean to me .....and will be deprived of my love that can not be seen, but can be felt only in dreams !!

 I sprang forth from an oyster ...... from the bottom of sea , Aphrodite like i feel, trapped in my body ...that needs nothing but love....and ever if i am able to receive , in this life you will see....i am the one ,who you find only in dreams !!

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2nd versatile blogger award

 
this is my fourth blogger award given to me by Akshay Kumar G :)let me tell you a bit about his blog first his blogs are versatile and he has the talent and ability to write over anything and everything in the most beautiful way:)you can go through his blog here The Eternal Fighter, The Ultimate Comeback Kid!.Thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much Akshay for this award:)

The rule of accepting the award are as follows

1.Paste the award picture on your blog
2.Thank the person who gave you the award
3.Pass on the award to 15fellow bloggers
4.share 7random facts about yourself

Well quite honestly i dont think i am in a position to review and award anyones blog as am new aroun here myself  and am 8months away from my blogoversary,morover i would like to give 62awards as all those following my blog and all those whos blogs i am following are really award worthy blogs..so its very difficult for me to decide.So in a random order i am giving the award,i am sorry if i missed giving someone the award but i promise i will do so the next time i recieve an award:)

Heres the list of awardees-

VST for Scribblings On The Walls Of Silence
Christy for My Kitchen Flavors - Bon Appetit!
elvira lobo for its my life
andy for Thoughts Of Beauty In The Stillness Of Dawn...
princess fiona for The Princess Passions
sangeeta reghu nair for Sangry Words
amit ganguly for Sustainable Sphere
sawan for Blogger (Blogspot) - ruffledsoul
kalpana misra for A rolling stone gathers no moss
sheril for TravelNlife
vijay shenoy for Minds Eye Of Life
magic eye for Pets forever
prime aque for  SB - Your decisions can best portray your life...
tim for Higher Truths
readit for Readitt 

Now 7random things about me are-
1.am  BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD cook
2.am as lazy as one can get
3.i am a die hard secularist
4.i can never watch movies on television have the attention span of a ninny
5.am a fitness freak
6.a major time animal lover
7.my dream is when i tyrn old i should have a big farm with hundreds of stray dogs:)

now time to inform all the awardees so ciao:)

blogger award liebster

                                                    
This is my second and third blogger award and am truly honoured as its been given to me by Andy whos poetry i admire so much and often wonder what his inspiration for writing is. You can read his blog here Thoughts Of Beauty In The Stillness Of Dawn...  once again Andy a biiiigggggggggg thank you:) and also by elvira lobo whos talent for describing a picture with poetry or just simple poetry is beyond words you can read her blog here its my life thank you sooooooooooooo much elvira once again.
I am combining the two liebster blog awards i have recieved individually from andy and elvira:)hence the dual award logo:)
The rules of accepting the award are as follows
1.link back to the person who gave you the award
2.pick 5people you want to share the award with and notify them on their blogs
3.post the award on your blog and spread the love

Well quite honestly i dont think i am in a position to review and award anyones blog as am new aroun here myself  and am 8months away from my blogoversary,morover i would like to give 62awards as all those following my blog and all those whos blogs i am following are really award worthy blogs..so its very difficult for me to decide.So in a random order i am giving the award,i am sorry if i missed giving someone the award but i promise i will do so the next time i recieve an award:)

heres the list of the awardees

 nuktaa for To think or Not to...
beyond for SOLILOQUIES - Beyond Few Words
thousif raza for *
r phoenix for The rPhoenix's altar...!
leo paw for bigbitz
bikramjit for Me and My Random Thoughts
sujatha sathya for Conversations
akshay kumar g for The Eternal Fighter, The Ultimate Comeback Kid!
raj for A beautiful mind!!
ajay aggarwal for FREEZED MOMENTS

now i need to inform everyone..so bye:)
p.s. i have tried not to award to all the fellow bloggers who i have previously my apologies for that its just because i wanted to pass on the award to everyone equally:)

i seek some advice

I heard some one knock at my heart .... before i could open the door ...i placed my face on the wall and heard my heart throb that was now hard....... and it seemed some one was trying to read my thoughts , buried deep in my heart.

I told my heart " hold on and make no sound , while he reads all my thoughts .....and wait for him to leave and come back to uncover my heart " that was not revealed for some reason  deep in my heart.

He came back to re read my unrevealed heart.... and said "now don't fear my love, if you understand the way i am made ,i am here to stay for rest of the life "

I opened the door ,that remained closed for long ....he broke open the wall ....... that concealed my slain heart...... and  entered , holding a memoir in his hand.....that i read through the night..... while he lay by my side....the story of his life.

I left for the day with peace in my mind.....woke up last night ,disturbed with noise.....confusion still prevails with  last words .....they haunt my mind.

Do i need to go through the trial once again....why cant i live with empty my life....haven't i had enough of this life,....tired i look at myself in  the mirror that says " you are too precious to let one play games with your heart....its too late to go through another trial  "

Uncertain i seek some advice !!

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i tried so hard

I tried so hard not to express how i felt when i dedicate my songs ......my songs  that i wrote when you were away and were gone .....frenzied my heart , not a trace on my face of anxious my heart .

I tried so hard to read out aloud , the songs that i wrote but before i could dedicate my songs to you....i heard a whistle of fast approaching storm.....a storm that wiped away my smile that i hide behind my eyes.

An alarm that blew my heart in small  flakes .....the flakes that went  flying around with your smile ...the smile on your face that i saw , had an essence that i knew, was not mine.

You broke my heart,you tore me apart....you were gone to stay away, with some one in your heart....all this while i wrote all my songs for the day, when we meet again and dedicate them to you .

The strange game that life played , i froze like ice felt my body being pierced with spikes.....when i saw the shade behind you had a colour that wasn't mine.

I gathered all flakes and left from there with a smile on my face.....i left no trace for you to erase the pain that i felt in frenzied my heart that was now recovering from the shock, that you are now gone .


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Paulo Coelho

It seemed i have come through the storm ..... the life seemed to have become a little kind....when i met somebody  who proved me wrong....few days i couldnt write.......the pain grew in my mind.....fate didnt seem on my side........ i feel i should leave it for a while......and wait for right moment to arrive.....and let the life take a call .....  at times i behave like a fool though i dont get carried away but  forget that life plays with my heart  .....it allows me to fly a bit but my wings are tied to some hidden tool.......every sound of thud opens my eyes....why am i trying to fly and not satiated with this life....but the desire of being loved is so strong,i am left with no choice.....the hunt for somebody does not stop though i know i am not entitled to have someone in this life..... i come back and read what Paulo Coelho says in Alchemist "when you want something really bad the entire universe aligns itself and works towards giving it to you " and wonder if that is really true and is right.

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